Any idea what's worth fighting for in life? I mean what's worth working hard for?
Some things can be gone so easily, so what if you fought so hard for it?
Things haven't been going right for me recently. Obviously october isn't a good month.
Its only the start of october and you see, I'm so troubled.
I'm actually blogging with my bb now coz my laptop has been send for repair.
Sighh, how I wish I can go back to ipoh. I know saying this means that I'm trying to run away from reality, trying to avoid the problem. Yeah I am, that's because I don't wish to get hurt, because I don't wish to face disappointments.
Everytime I come back from overseas, I'll wished that I can just stay there and don't come back.
It doesn't matter where I go, but just not here. Life here is so much more stressful, there's so many problems.
I hate it when I get affected by someone's words so easily.
But seriously, its the most irresponsible statement I've heard.
So tell me, what have I done to deserve this?
Do I even have a choice? If I have, I don't wish to choose another path, I will rather not choose any path.
I'll rather not be here.
I have to depend on myself for so many things, its really tiring.
Its funny to know someone whom you are closest with don't even help or understand you, can't even be bothered.
So what? Who else can I trust and depend on? Only myself isn't it?
Yeah indeed. Many times, its not as if I don't want to trust people, its because I don't dare to trust people.
I'm just so tired, tired of waiting, tired of trying, tired of guessing. Tired of handling things myself.
I thought all the tough times were over. The storm hasn't end yet.
I was told, there will be a rainbow after the rain, you just have to wait for the storm to end.
But when? How long more?
I don't know, all I know is, I've got to be stronger.
I guess now, I've know what's my priority.
I'm sorry for being selfish. But, I don't want to carry on like this.
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