Alright basically, i guess i wont really do very well for my papers this time round. I feel so unprepared this time round. Especially for my dip plus omg, i thought i was quite confident but apparently after the paper, i was really feeling so emo about it coz i kinda know that i'll do quite badly. Okay, if i really fail this time, i guess most likely i'll just drop dip plus, not that i want to give up so easily, but i dont see a point, coz the certificate will be quite useless if i do very badly. Okay, but whats over is over, i dont want to think about it but still, i hope it wont be that bad.
Alright, some pictures here! Went to ecp with sophia the other time, but she didnt have the time to upload the pics and finally here it is. We both cycled that time coz we reach there rather late and there isnt much time left. I love to go cycling/skating at parks. Okay my class outing next week is at ecp, gonna go back there and this time round, i want to skate.
Okay so for this holiday, i've got some upcoming plans ahead. Gonna meet up with some of my secondary school friends that i've not seen for quite some time. Now that they all have finished their A levels, i guess they have lots of free time!
Still working during weekends, i actually got a weekday job, but i back out last minute and told them i wont be working. Its really last min, im suppose to start work tml but i told them today. Feeling really guilty about it, but seriously, im quite confused as to what i need to do. I dont even know anything about the job, i havent even gone for the briefing, and there isnt any instructions given to me. I just dont really like this kind of uncertainty, yeah so decided to tell them that i dont want to. I know this is bad, but sometimes, i dont really want to put others infront of myself, and put myself in a difficult position.
Yeap so now, still trying to find other jobs. Really need to work coz im saving up for my oitp. Its tiring to work and study at the same time, but... i dont really have a choice.
Alright, just asking a question. If you are really caught in a dilemma, what would you do? If you are in this situation whereby you have to force yourself to do something you dont like to, yet its something you should do, would you do it? Im feeling very troubled recently, okay maybe not recently, for quite some time i should say. But somehow i've been avoiding this problem for quite long, but it somehow just came to me that i shouldnt be avoiding it anymore. Im stuck in this situation, but i dont really know what to do. I dont want to force myself to do something i dont like, but yet, i feel that it is something i should do.
Its really something which has been bothering me for quite some time, but i cant seem to find the exact solution to it. I guess there's no "right" solution in this case, but at least a best solution to the problem. Its partly because i've made some sort of mistake in the past, and i dont wish to made the same mistake again. But, would you rather make a decision for yourself or for others?
Sighh, i really wish i can come to a conclusion. Alright, i'll go think about it. I always think a lot a night. I dont know why, but i'll usually feel very emotional at night. Probably because i think alot before i sleep. Its the best time when u can lie on bed, and think about everything. People wont ask you why you are staring into space, what you are thinking about and other related questions. Yeah, so i shall go think about it.
Yup i guess thats all i have. goodbye and goodnight. Its 1.45am i guess i should sleep soon :)
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