Mixed feelings.

Hi im back! (just a warning, quite a long and wordy post).
Anw, my mst are over today.
Well it totally sucks, i totally screw up every single papers, yes every single one of them. I had 3 papers, and out of this 3, my dip plus was the worst seriously. I lost like at least 30 marks for that paper, i dont know wtf i am doing. Why am i studying and studying for that paper and during the test i just feel as if i didnt study at all? Seriously whats wrong with me, and the damn serious thing is, i dont even feel v worried or v sad about it. If it was me in the past, i bet i'll be crying over it, but this time round, yeah im disappointed, but not very very sad. Why? Omg what am i thinking about seriously.
Well since its over its over, im just gonna buck up next sem, i think im screwing up my year 2, which i dont want to. Hey, i worked damn hard for year 1, i dont want to waste all my efforts. SO PLEASE, WAKE UP GIRL!!!!!
Anw, ended paper today and went for class outing at pasir ris park. Well, was a bbq. I never really liked bbq unless i have people serving me. But apparently bbq is just something which is like a waste of time and erm, idk what to say about it. You waste so much time, you bbq that little bit of food. You only had one or two bbq pits, you have so many people. You pay so much, you ate so little. You ate so little, everything is so fattening. So in conclusion, i dont like bbq. But well, since most of the outings usually are bbq, i dont really have a choice and yeah, i'll still go.
Okay anw, im going out tomorrow for shopping. Sighhh, did i mentioned that i am seriously super duper broke recently. Yeah i know i always mentioned that i am broke but this time round, i really am, really. Everything is in need of money, and idk where to get money from. And when i said everything, i meant those necessary expenses, not my shopping expenses or whatever. Yeah im having such a headache coz i've to squeeze out money from somewhere even though i know im super broke. So when i said im going shopping tml, i meant window shopping alright. So tell me, whats shopping when you have no money? And after shopping, i've got training at night. Alright just in case you are wondering why i have cca on a friday night coz usually mine is on tue, thu and sat, its coz we have a performance on sat, which is what i wanna mentioned about.
Gusto is performing at marina barrage this saturday, for the singapore international water festival, well we arent the main characters for that day though, its the canoeists and dragonboaters i guess. Anyway, if you're free on that day, do come down to show us your support. No harm coming, just take it as a family day to marina barrage! Time flies, last year i was there to be a supporter, supporting my seniors, watching them perform.
This year, i was back there as a performer, for the same event, different routine, different people.
I thank you for the opportunity you gave, because i know you really meant well. Perhaps im not worth it, or i've yet to prove that im worth it, but i know, someday i will. Maybe you wouldnt know how grateful i felt, but it really do matters to me. So thanks alot, really alot. And also, not forgetting the others, thank you.
And the above, is to someone i really thanked. I doubt he will be reading this but anyway, i just want to express it out.
Okay well, and for next week, omg the thought of going back to school for lessons really bores me. Well by right school reopens this week, just that we are still having mst. Isnt it weird to have test after the holidays? It feels so different, and after the tests, back to lessons. Sighhhhh, august please come quickly, coz thats when my long holiday comes. Oh and anw, its 1st july today! Time really flies, july please be a good month alright, although i doubt so because july is the datelines for my projects! :( Gonna rush like mad! So actually, im not really looking forward to july :((
Well that will be all, tomorrow's my only slack day, after tomorrow, need to chiong all the way!
Yup that will be all, update again some other time! Its about 2am, time to sleep, im feeling so tired right now!