We are all different,

It has been so long since i came back from cruise. But i still miss cruise sooooooooo much, no maybe not cruise, i just miss that kind of feeling. I miss the sea, when im there, i love looking at the sea, looking at how fast or how slow the ship travels, looking at the waves. It just makes me feel so relax, no problems at all. Idk if you understand what im saying, my point is, i just love the feeling because it just feels that you are away from the world, you dont feel how stressful life is....
I know i've been repeating this over and over again, but i really miss cruise, if i have a choice, i would want to stay there, thats the kind of life i want, i mean not just by slacking and enjoying myself, but its the kind of carefree life that i want, when suddenly you just feel that the pace of life is much slower...

Back here, so many problems. The moment school reopens, it will be so tiring. I know, there's no way i can avoid this, i cant possibly drop out from school right? But seriously, its really stressful. There's gonna be 4 days of training per week, its confirm, the saturday training will be permanent.
I really dont know how long i can hang on. Its not that i dontwant, but sometimes im really tired by all these... Im just afraid that all my efforts will be wasted. There's a limit to everything, i havent reach my limit yet, but i dont know where's it, probably reaching soon.
I just dont know if its worth it for me to do all these, probably, when i really cant find any reason to stay on, thats when everything will come to an end. But now, no i dont want to end it. Sighh... its really troubling me.
And anw, my ankle hurts, i think its not fully recovered after so long, maybe that time when i twisted it, the injury is quite serious.
And my wrist, starts to hurt again, there's still training this coming saturday, sighh, how is it going to recover like that?
Cheer competition, lots of things to do, all by this coming week, how am i gonna rush out all these?
Especially so when we dont really have any ideas contributed, so many things, i've still got project and the dateline is on the first day of school.
Hang on there, until you really cant.