I dont really know what to say, or how to start off.
Yes, i dont deny it hurts, it hurts badly.
But if anyone were to ask me, no i dont blame them. If somebody has to be at fault, i guess it would be me.
Many things shouldnt be said, shouldnt be done. If i have been more persistent, things wouldnt become this way right?
Life's always playing a fool of us, maybe, on me.
Things you dont want to see happening, always happened.
Its so dramatic, this sounds like a storyline to me, how i hope it is. But sad to say, its not, this is reality.
Its like a double blow for me, i've tried so hard and finally i've picked myself up and slowly getting back on track. But there again, it comes another huge blow.
But i guess life's always like this. It wont goes smoothly. Especially when it comes to love, nothing ever goes smoothly. Before a happy ending, there's always many unpleasant past. And for scorpio, it is said that our love life can rarely go smoothly. Yeah i believed in horoscope now, everything it said.
Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. But for me, i dont prefer to be kept in the dark, i dont want to be like a fool. So, its better by being honest with me.
Like i've said, yes, im sad, but i dont blame anyone.
I guess the saddest part of all was the excuses i've been finding to deceive myself. The excuses i've been finding to tell myself that everything's fine. The lies i've been coming up with to tell myself that i'm being too paranoid, thinking too much. And, the lies you have said that made me believe that i really am thinking too much.
But i guess in a relationship, there's just no right or wrong. You do what you feel like doing, and what your heart wants you to.
There are just certain things, no matter how hard you try, what you do, it doesnt gives you back what you want. No amount of effort helps.
Guess all these are fated. There's nothing much that i can do to change anything, just be strong.
Someone once told me, "When the storm ends, that's when the rainbow will come out."
From the point of time he told me that, i've been waiting and waiting, till now, i'm still wondering, when's my rainbow ever gonna appear.
I'm like forever trapped in this storm of mine, and it seems as if it will never end.
But still, i shall be strong and face it, one day it will. And my rainbow, will definitely be one of the prettiest i've ever seen.
I guess i'll just take it as a lesson learnt, and perhaps, im gonna grow, turn more matured, and knows how to handle my feelings or emotions.
I guess sometimes, we shouldnt really trust people too much, except for ourselves. And this is something i've got to learn.
Dont worry, im fine. Today will be the end of all the emo thoughts, i'll go to sleep, and once i wake up, everything's gonna be fine and back to normal.
Girl, be strong, smile and dont let others see you fall.
You can be happy, really happy, and you can get over all this shit. Life's gonna get better and better.
Over here, i wished both of you all the best. Both of you are gonna be my best friends and this will go on. Last long and i'll always be there for anyone of you.
And this few days, i've been listening to this song for so long.
Replaying and replaying because it seems like every sentence of it describes how im feeling. Listen to it, the lyrics and everything, perhaps you will know how i feel.
杨丞琳 - 我们都傻
计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了 那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱她 你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱她 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
只是问心无愧 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
还在期待会有奇迹出现
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