Its difficult to...

Im choosing something which is supposedly better for me.
It may not be the best solution to problems, but at least, it makes myself feel better.
Now i understand, perhaps many words were said to make me feel better, or were a form of encouragement or maybe just to comfort me. In fact, they may all be lies, but i believe its white lies in this case.
In fact, i wasnt really expecting anything, i've made my decision already. Im just rather disappointed to know that all those words were not meant to be true... Im not implying that im blaming anyone, i know no one is at fault. But i would rather not hear lies, but its okay, i'll just pretend as if i didnt know anything and didnt realize.

I know there's a limit how much others can help me...
People around me are trying, perhaps now i've realize it. Maybe the problem lies with me.
Sorry that i'm always like this. Just that at times, i dont know why, im just like this. You all probably wont know, i've tried, but cant.
Im just in no mood for anything, not interested in anything.
And perhaps because of this, im slowly distancing myself, im losing trust in others and i dont really wish to communicate so much anymore.
Actually i know i'm not solving the problem, instead im just escaping from it. I realized everytime there's a problem, im always escaping from it. But sometimes, it may be the best solution available.

Sometimes i think about the past, and i feel that it was so much better.
Few years ago, when i was back in secondary school, everything was so much simpler, happy was just defined as happy and sad was just defined as sad.
Things arent as complicated.
Since people are trying to help me, maybe its time for me to do something for them and myself...
I hope it helps....



一个人，久了也会累
哭了总希望有人安慰
但是，有时候要找个听你说话的人很难
而有时候想把心里的话说出来却更难