Its just about taking the first step

I've thought a little.
In the past, i've always mentioned it, but i didnt really give it a serious thought.
So now, maybe its time, when i should seriously think about it.
I keep avoiding this, because i thought that things are gonna get better, i thought that i really cant bear to do it.
But, its just about taking the first step right? Maybe it isnt as bad as i thought.
I dont want to, i seriously dont want to, because its not easy for me to get right here. But, the question is: What's the point of all this?
I wont get anything right? I know, because i understand myself.
And this few days, i've been feeling much better.
There's really an impact on me, on my life.
So, should i or should i not?