Yes, in the blink of an eye.
Back then in year 1, when i just entered sp, i vividly remembered how i felt. I was kind of anxious, nervous, unfamiliar about the surroundings.
And then school officially starts, and i hated my class, yes really hated it a lot. The many disputes and conflicts we had, really makes school so terrible at that time. And then, just the first week of school, and i already regretted my decision of coming into a poly.
I dread going to school everyday, because i have to face with a class which i don't think i belong to.
And thinking back, this 3 years in poly, the torturous 3 years i've had.
I don't know if torturous is the right word to use, but i clearly know i hadn't really enjoyed my poly life.
The 3 years when i struggled through the heavy workload every semester, when i have to juggle between the many projects, cca and dip plus. There's some people without cca, some without dip plus, i had both, and project groups were something so unpleasant at that time. I had a tough time striking a balance for everything. It was so stressful, really.
The 3 years filled with tears, neverending tears because of how stressful, how indignant i felt. Filled with hatred, with many negative feelings, with laughter and memories. Though i guess i would say, there were more bad memories than good memories, but still, i would say i have learnt a lot while i was in sp. And i guess nobody would have understand how i felt for this 3 years, and whatever i have gone through.
School was so stressful with all the projects, and when i go to cca, it was so stressful too. And i wanted to prove to everyone else, i can do it. I can lead a fulfilling life, be an all-rounder and that my decision of coming to a poly wasn't a wrong one. That's why i had a really high expectation for myself, since i chose any route that most people don't encourage me to. So i guess i was the one who created all the stress myself. And then came year 2, which was my super down period, and all i hope for was time to pass by quickly. I don't even want to think about anything, i just wanted to finish poly real quickly.
And yes, now that school has officially ended, am i really happy?
Partly yes, i'm finally free from all the projects and looking forward to disney. And partly, no? Its kind of sad to leave poly just like this. Kind of sad to have my 3 years passed so quickly. Yes really no joke, this 3 years in poly really passed by dammmmmnnnnn quickly. I keep emphasizing on 3 years because seriously, i can't believe how fast time has passed!
And its kind of sad that i didn't have enough time to get to know my classmates better, didn't have enough chance to hang out with them. Its just when i started to realize that they aren't as bad as i thought, aren't as unfriendly as i thought, and you see.... it all comes to an end.
Perhaps what i could have done better, was to solve the misunderstanding we had right then in year 1, and tried a lot harder to improve our relationship back then.
But on a side note, i really thank mr ronald a lot, if it wasn't for him, i guess there were still a lot of misunderstanding right now, still a lot of disputes within the class. Though i wouldn't say that all of us are veryyyyyy close, but at least, comparing to year 1, we are so so so so so so so so so much better. Its all thanks to the balloting, when we have new combinations of project groups, all of us start to talk, hang out, and our relationships improved.
Well, if you ask me, if i ever regret coming to a poly. My answer would still be yes. But that's no longer because of my class. I just regretted it because poly life wasn't what i thought it would be. I didn't have as much fun as i thought it would be. But still, i've finished my 3 years of curriculum, and yes, i've learnt a lot here. I really want to thank a few people, because if it wasn't for them, i guess i wouldn't have pulled through the 3 years of poly. Its their words of encouragement, motivation and the support they have lended me that helped me through all the tough times. Thank you friends (:
Okay i don't want to make this sound so emo, and neither do i want to make it like a thank you speech.
Its a rather long post, but i was thinking, since i'm posting about my last official day of school, might as well type out how i'm feeling. Yeah so here it is, but its not the end! I've still got one last semester of itp before i finally graduate from sp! And i'm dammmmmmnnnnn looking forward to it, really! I hope its gonna be fun (which i think so), and i really hope i'll have a lot of great memories there!
But before all these, i've got to clear the last exam for my entire poly life first! Okay that's when i feel so sian. But still, its my last lap. So all the best to me, and to everyone else!
And here are some pictures taken on the last day of school. (Sadly, not the whole class is here!) But no worries since we still have a last gathering before our itp!
And i was just looking through my folder, and i've got a lot more pictures when we were in year 1 and 2. Just look out for the change in us!
And then there was the times when i spent it with my cca friends (:
And that basically sums up all.
I took a pretty long time to finish this post, and that's because i wanted to recall back everything in these 3 years. Whether its the good or bad, its still all the part and parcel that makes up my poly life.
(:
Okay i'm going to bed, really tired day today!
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