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Hi all, school has been pretty much busy for me. And how's it for all of you? I'm stuck with all the projects and tutorials for this term. Its such a torture, only 3 projects for this term and i feel like dying. I've got 7 projects, yes 7 freaking projects next term. How am i gonna survive tell me? But still, i'm gonna pull through this definitely. I'm so damn excited about my disney trip!!!! Okay i know i am such an embarrassment, apparently my other coursemates from other classes seemed so calm. But the 3 of us in 06 are so damn excited. Mountain tortoise lol. Hehe but really, especially when i start to apply for this and that, start to go for this check or that check. I went for a criminal investigation check yesterday, and i think after that we applying for visa? All these just makes me feel that the day is coming nearer and nearer! :DD But before all this, i have to finish up my freaking last sem of poly. Year 3 is so tough seriously!!!! I'm pretty tired with projects, projects and projects. I guess i just hate projects. Maybe it was not the project group that i disliked all along. Even though i have a much much much better, in fact a really good group this sem, i still feel so tired, so stress up, so frustrated, so annoyed. Yes, and i figured it out, i'm just not the type for projects. Yeah, never. I hate research, hate trying to go around getting information which seems almost impossible. Really, but still, i keep telling myself, its the freaking last semester. In fact, i dont know why, i am still so affected by all these. I feel... its the same thing happening again. I didnt want to mention this, but i just feel.... i don't know what's the right word to use to describe my feelings. Irritated? Stressed? Tired? Unappreciated? Troubled? I dont know.. but.. yeah i just dont like this feeling. Maybe its the different views and opinions every individual have that causes all these. Or maybe... it was me who changed? I just dont want to, and dont think it is worth it just for that. And all i want is for this semester to end quickly, and i really hope for that. And maybe now i kinda understand when people says... Being the best doesn't neccessary makes you the happiest. And not being the best, you may be much happier in that way. I mean at least, you don't have to worry about this and that, don't have to worry about not meeting the expectations, don't have to worry about not being the best anymore. Maybe i'm thinking too much again. Sigh, have been trying to tell myself not to overthink. Overthinking ruins you, makes you paranoid, affects your emotions..... Alright, i shouldn't. Trying hard not to.