Girls day out!

Have been hanging out this few days due to extreme boredom.
Went picnic the other day with my girls.
It was so super hot that day, but i guess we still had fun. Especially when we were chased by the dog. **Most embarrassing moment** (Okay inside joke, its meant to be a secret)

And then the other day went out with wx to catch a movie! Anyway this means war is a nice movie! Super funny!!
Omg i need to shop seriously, we went editors market, both found some things we really wanted to buy but couldnt find enough people to buy with us!!

Should meet up more with friends coz i definitely know i wont have the time when school reopens!
Hope everyone is enjoying your holidays! :DD

说不哭

I was very sad today. Very.
I keep thinking about everything, what people think of me, all the things that have happened. People dont understand, i thought about all the possible situations, and i know, nobody understand how i have felt all the while.
I've tried, i dare to say i've tried my best. How many people believe me? All out of those who believe me, how many people understand how it feels to have tried yet couldnt get anything out of it? And what about the feeling when other people who are better than you keep saying they are feeling the worst, but obviously you know you are much worst than them. I guess i've always hate the feeling of being neglected, neglected feelings. Maybe i've always wanted to say this out, just that i didnt know who's gonna be there to listen, like really listen with the heart. If you are sincerely caring about others, trying to help them, and others dont even appreciate it, dont recognize your efforts, how does it feel? Do i deserve all these? I tried to do whatever i can, but it doesnt make a difference. Its like... when you are always nice to people, they dont realize how nice you are. But if you are nice to them once in a while, they feel so touched. Why did i hang on for so long? I wanted to turn things around, do what i can because i've always thought whatever i did wasnt enough. But, now i know, actually i did alot, it was enough, it was just that people who dont know how to appreciate, didnt even realize anything. Because some things were of little significance to them, it isnt even called efforts. Only things that would make enough difference to others would be known as efforts.
I said all these, because until now, i realized i've yet to let go of everything. Thinking of it still makes me cry, still makes me so sad about it. Is it because of those words? Is it because everything was too hurtful. Really, the period of time was like a nightmare, nightmare for me. I would never want to go back to that time. And those times which was so memorable, so fun, that was just the beginning. I hope, i can meet people who knows how to appreciate. Appreciate all the little things people do for you. I hope i can meet people who truly understands me, and listen to me. I hope i can stop thinking about all these things, at least stop letting all these things affect my self-esteem, my confidence. Okay, i guess its just for today. Havent been like that for quite some time.
希望不要再为不值得的人和事哭了

Results

My results were out today.
Sigh, really shouldnt have any kind of expectations. Led to so much disappointment. But still, i thought i was really confident for that paper you see. HRM HRM HRM!!! I'm still so super angry now!
It was just so close to my expecations, why my results always like that!!!
Okay fine, i should think of the positive side, at least my dip plus did well, from C+ to A.
Arrhhh okay suan le, shouldnt think about it already.

Anyway, one year ago from this date, i promised myself something.
But i broke this promise, coz i couldnt take it.
Well, one year really passed by so fast.
I left not with the thought of giving up, i just didnt want to hold on to something which doesnt seem possible to achieve, and making me feel so damn miserable.
Perhaps all my reasons seemed like excuses in your minds, but still, i would say the same thing, you arent in my shoes, you dont know how i feel.
I've tried, but its too much for me to take. I dont want to get so affected again and again. And now that i've let go, i know i did make the right choice because life doesnt just revolve around one thing, there's always other things for me to look forward to.
But anyway, its just a few days more to go, goodluck and all the best to all of you.

Hello March!

Hi people, i'm already having my holidays now!
And you see, time flies, its already MARCH!
Dont you all feel that the older you grow, the faster time passes by?
Alright anyway, this holiday, i am definitely going to take a well-deserved break! Finally, my year 2 of poly is over, its fast isnt it? Now left with the final sem before i leave for itp. Oh yah mentioning itp, the first batch of disney students are leaving sg in a few days' time i think. Thinking about it, its gonna be my turn soon six months later! *Excited*

Anyway, i went for a haircut. I cut my hair short(though not very very short, but still considered short). I mean since my original length was quite long, so this length should be considered short for those who havent seen me in short hair before. I forgot when was the last time i had a hair at this length, quite long ago i would say.

Okay, im rather satisfied with the haircut this time round :DD

Oh anyway, i've been stuck at home this few days due to lack of money. Cant go out coz i dont want to waste any money.
So my daily routine is: Wake up, breakfast, watch running man, lunch, watch running man, dinner, watch bbjx, watch running man, sleep.
Yes running man all day! Since im stuck at home and have nothing to do, might as well find some shows to watch! And running man haha, its v nice. So super funny! Had a lot of friends watching it, but didnt have the time to watch it previously. Now that its holiday, of course i must take time off to watch right! And btw, i think Kim Jong Kook is so cute(though a little old), but nah, he's still v cute :D

I've found a temp job(for two weeks only), still in the process of finding, and starting work next monday! V super nervous!!!!
Okay i hope nothing goes wrong and i'll be able to finish the 2 weeks job fast!!

Alright, i guess thats all, its about time for dinner and after dinner running man again! Byebye :)