I dreamt of the same person in 3 consecutive days. Pure coincidence? Yeah perhaps it is.
I wish to say how much i wanted to approach you. But no, i dont dare to at all.
I dont know where all my courage went to, perhaps i never once had them, but i thought, i always thought i had that amount of courage in front of you. At least i could talk whatever i want.
I know if i need you to be here for me, you will. But, i have no reason to.
Everything im doing now has nothing to do with you, though i wish it does, but there's just this huge gap.
I do miss those times, when i think im not afraid to hide anything, and can say what i want to. When i have someone who can just listen quietly, even if nothing much can be done to help me.
And now that everything's over, all those times were over too.
Like those images that keep appearing in my dreams, but you know, they are just dreams, and once over, its over, they dont come true.
But still, thanks for being there, even though it was all in the past.
January 24, 2012
January 20, 2012
Long weekend! ((:
Hi all, been busy with projects recently and i finally managed to find some time to blog coz of cny holiday (:
Talking about project, im quite happy with a presentation we had on tue. Its not exactly a presentation, but we are suppose to conduct training for a group with people, which is our classmates. Our group did leadership training, apparently i got the idea from leap camp, and did something like that, explain the concepts like how the trainers explained to us. My group got the highest, im so happy!! Not trying to haolian here, but its not easy for us to do every single project, so i think we should be proud of our own results. I still got a few more projects and will clear it for this term. I think this term is super fast, after cny it will be the fourth week. omg soon its end of study week, and then come revision, then come exam, and come holidays. The first batch of itp students are going for theirs in march. Heard those going to disney will leave on 3rd march, and approximately eight months later its gonna be my turn :D
Anyway im happy with my life now, im free and have more time. Im free to do things i want, to take a break when needed. I spend more time with my classmates now and im glad i've got the chance to be closer to them. I dont want to leave poly at the third year with a really bad relationship with my class. At least things are better now. I go out with my friends if we are more free, and i dont think about the past so much anymore. I'm not really tied down to anything, i dont need to answer to anybody, and i dont need to feel uncomfortable or awakward with anything else. Im fine and happy with life now. Just that, sometimes, i still think about all those things, and... its kinda sad when i look back. The memories that were once so precious to me, the times which i missed a lot but can never go back. The regrets i have till now. And everything that happened, i know i cant forget and wont forget, but i will try to let go of everything. Coz i dont want it to affect me, even if im reminded of it.
There are people whom i treasure, who matters a lot to me, but they slowly fade and leave my life as time passes. There's this gap and this distance which just widens as time passes. Different world, different mindset, different topics. I guess things will change, i hope it wont, but you know, things like this, you cant do anything about it right? Its like we have embark on different paths, go different ways, get on with our different lives. Maybe, i hope, someday, we will meet again somewhere in our lives.
Anyway, my lecturer did this numerology thing for me. Basically i think its using your birthday to help calculate and say about your personality of life. Apparently, i have this line of frustration, which means i get frustrated really easily. He said its quite a bad thing if i dont control, really bad coz.... Haha not gonna to say this. But well, this numerology thing is quite interesting, i think the book is sold at kinokuniya, maybe i should go down to take a look when im free.
Oh and anyway, did you guys actually watch the 7pm show on channel 8? Its called 步步惊心. I think its really nice. Only the 4th episode and i already started crying. So for those who havent watch, go watch it! I think its quite a touching storyline, especially when i dont really like 古装戏.
Alright, thats pretty much all for now. And before i end,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!
Hope all of you collect lots of angbaos and have a great chinese new year! :DD
Talking about project, im quite happy with a presentation we had on tue. Its not exactly a presentation, but we are suppose to conduct training for a group with people, which is our classmates. Our group did leadership training, apparently i got the idea from leap camp, and did something like that, explain the concepts like how the trainers explained to us. My group got the highest, im so happy!! Not trying to haolian here, but its not easy for us to do every single project, so i think we should be proud of our own results. I still got a few more projects and will clear it for this term. I think this term is super fast, after cny it will be the fourth week. omg soon its end of study week, and then come revision, then come exam, and come holidays. The first batch of itp students are going for theirs in march. Heard those going to disney will leave on 3rd march, and approximately eight months later its gonna be my turn :D
Anyway im happy with my life now, im free and have more time. Im free to do things i want, to take a break when needed. I spend more time with my classmates now and im glad i've got the chance to be closer to them. I dont want to leave poly at the third year with a really bad relationship with my class. At least things are better now. I go out with my friends if we are more free, and i dont think about the past so much anymore. I'm not really tied down to anything, i dont need to answer to anybody, and i dont need to feel uncomfortable or awakward with anything else. Im fine and happy with life now. Just that, sometimes, i still think about all those things, and... its kinda sad when i look back. The memories that were once so precious to me, the times which i missed a lot but can never go back. The regrets i have till now. And everything that happened, i know i cant forget and wont forget, but i will try to let go of everything. Coz i dont want it to affect me, even if im reminded of it.
There are people whom i treasure, who matters a lot to me, but they slowly fade and leave my life as time passes. There's this gap and this distance which just widens as time passes. Different world, different mindset, different topics. I guess things will change, i hope it wont, but you know, things like this, you cant do anything about it right? Its like we have embark on different paths, go different ways, get on with our different lives. Maybe, i hope, someday, we will meet again somewhere in our lives.
Anyway, my lecturer did this numerology thing for me. Basically i think its using your birthday to help calculate and say about your personality of life. Apparently, i have this line of frustration, which means i get frustrated really easily. He said its quite a bad thing if i dont control, really bad coz.... Haha not gonna to say this. But well, this numerology thing is quite interesting, i think the book is sold at kinokuniya, maybe i should go down to take a look when im free.
Oh and anyway, did you guys actually watch the 7pm show on channel 8? Its called 步步惊心. I think its really nice. Only the 4th episode and i already started crying. So for those who havent watch, go watch it! I think its quite a touching storyline, especially when i dont really like 古装戏.
Alright, thats pretty much all for now. And before i end,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!
Hope all of you collect lots of angbaos and have a great chinese new year! :DD
January 7, 2012
First week of 2012.
Hi all, how has this week been for all of you? Dont be too gloomy if you are, because this is the first week of 2012.
Alright i've got a couple of pics here which are supposed to be uploaded quite some time ago. Remember i mentioned i had a class outing in december, yeap last month, i've got my pics now, so here it is...
with sophia :D
So that's the mini class photo
And here's all the girls who turned up for the outing!
Yeap, im too lazy to upload many pics. So just some of them which i like.
Okay so what have i been doing for this first week of 2012? Busy. With projects. I think im forever mentioning that im busy, and the reason is always because of projects. Idk, but it seems like my course has the most projects to do. Only first week of school omg. But nvm, i hoped to clear all this fast.
First week of school, and there's also the sp open house. Im proud to see my dear juniors performing for the open house. Just that it feels..... dont know how to describe the feeling, when i see them perform. But still, good job.
And anyway, i was near woodlands checkpoint today. Saw it and i was reminded of the leap camp in september. Remembered how it feels to go on a camp with a group of strangers, where out of the whole group, i only know a few of them, and are only close with 2 of them. But, the whole camp was so memorable to me still. So actually, there's still good moments in life for us to remember.
Okay anw, just wondering, should i cut my hair short? Like really short. Hmm maybe above shoulder? I have always wanted to cut it short but i've got no courage to. Give me some opinions please.
I guess thats all for now. Oh anw, cny is coming, have all of you bought your new year clothes? I think thats the happiest time of the year for the girls, we can go shopping for clothes without feeling guilty, without our mums nagging at us for buying so many things. Basically i've finished my shopping, yeah abit kiasu, but i know i'm gonna be quite busy for the next few weeks.
Haha okay alright, thats it for now. I'll update again soon! :>
我越了解你，越靠近你，越犹豫
明知道我爱你，却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你，宁愿沉默不语
Alright i've got a couple of pics here which are supposed to be uploaded quite some time ago. Remember i mentioned i had a class outing in december, yeap last month, i've got my pics now, so here it is...
Yeap, im too lazy to upload many pics. So just some of them which i like.
Okay so what have i been doing for this first week of 2012? Busy. With projects. I think im forever mentioning that im busy, and the reason is always because of projects. Idk, but it seems like my course has the most projects to do. Only first week of school omg. But nvm, i hoped to clear all this fast.
First week of school, and there's also the sp open house. Im proud to see my dear juniors performing for the open house. Just that it feels..... dont know how to describe the feeling, when i see them perform. But still, good job.
And anyway, i was near woodlands checkpoint today. Saw it and i was reminded of the leap camp in september. Remembered how it feels to go on a camp with a group of strangers, where out of the whole group, i only know a few of them, and are only close with 2 of them. But, the whole camp was so memorable to me still. So actually, there's still good moments in life for us to remember.
Okay anw, just wondering, should i cut my hair short? Like really short. Hmm maybe above shoulder? I have always wanted to cut it short but i've got no courage to. Give me some opinions please.
I guess thats all for now. Oh anw, cny is coming, have all of you bought your new year clothes? I think thats the happiest time of the year for the girls, we can go shopping for clothes without feeling guilty, without our mums nagging at us for buying so many things. Basically i've finished my shopping, yeah abit kiasu, but i know i'm gonna be quite busy for the next few weeks.
Haha okay alright, thats it for now. I'll update again soon! :>
我越了解你，越靠近你，越犹豫
明知道我爱你，却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你，宁愿沉默不语
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