Hi people, i'm such a busy girl this few weeks, which explains why i didnt really blog for a few weeks.
You know, i always try to blog at least once every week coz i like to take down what happened, how im feeling and many many things. Well, but these few weeks i've got quite a lot of presentations, so yeah. Actually i still have a presentation tml but i'll take some time to blog.
Okay, I'll start off with last wednesday. I had a project which requires us to do research on religion. So for my group, we are supposed to do on Buddhism. We visited a temple, interviewed a monk and i would say i've learnt quite a bit from him.
Well, there's so much things i didnt know about Buddhism. And all the teachings, it really makes sense to me, and i feel its actually quite interesting. I used to think religion is quite boring, but when i really research about it, its quite interesting seriously.
And if there's one thing that i learnt from what the monk said, it would be, "You are the result of what you are".
I guess most of you would be able to understand what it means right? Its a simple meaning, whatever you do, you will get it back. You did something good, you'll get back something good. Similarly, you did something bad, you will get something bad. The results may not show immediately, but who knows, its just a matter of time. Yeah, so i would say, its quite a fruitful trip there.
Last saturday, went for my cousin's wedding in the afternoon. And after that, met up with wx to watch you are the apple of my eye. Seriously, i think the movie is so super nice!!! Not exaggerating but i really thinks its nice. Its funny, so sweet, so touching. Yeah, so for those who havent watch it, go watch!! I actually want to re-watch the movie. Its the first time i want to watch a movie for more than once. Coz usually, i'll think its like a waste of money to watch a movie again, since you already know the whole story plot. But this time round, i think its worth spending the money. I only met up with her for a short while though, coz it was rather late when we met. So, i wished that holidays come quickly, so we can go out again :))
Okay, so for now, i think i should focus on all my other presentations till i finished them. And my mst is coming really soon, less than two weeks from now. Sighh, havent even started studying yet. I think im in deep trouble this time round, for the first few weeks, i havent been listening in lectures. So there's quite a lot of things which i dont really understand. Okay nvm, i'll study hard, hopefully i can do well. You know, now i really envy the JC people, i know there's quite a lot of you who have finished your papers for A levels. Time flies you see. I've been saying this for so many times really. Two years have passed, and they are gonna graduate soon. And here i am, still stuck at poly year 2. One more year to go before i graduate. Sometimes i would think, what would it be like if i had chosen to go to JC? I would be finishing my two years of JC education, able to go to university in a few months' time. I would meet different kinds of people, i would (maybe) be happier than now? Not saying that im not happy with my current life, just that, this doesnt seemed to be the kind of poly life i wanted, or rather, what i've expected. I dont exactly know whats the difference, but, its just different from what i thought it would be 2 years ago. Yeah true, but so what? Since we cant turn back time, i should just put all my efforts to do well for poly, and i cant wait for the last sem oitp! :D
Yeap thats about all i want to say, need to get back to work pretty soon. I guess i'll be rather busy for the next two weeks till my papers are over, so i'll blog after that. Wish me good luck for the rest of my presentations and all the papers! ;DD
Ohoh, go listen to 那些年 in the movie you are the apple of my eye. Super nice song and i just keep replaying over and over again.
I know its important to spare a thought for others, but isnt it more important to spare a thought for myself? This time round, i really hope to make a decision for myself, not for anyone else. Afterall, i'm living for myself, not for others. I'll try my best, but if i ever change my mind, i hope you will understand.
November 23, 2011
November 6, 2011
November 3, 2011
This time round, its really the end.
I dont really know what to say, or how to start off.
Yes, i dont deny it hurts, it hurts badly.
But if anyone were to ask me, no i dont blame them. If somebody has to be at fault, i guess it would be me.
Many things shouldnt be said, shouldnt be done. If i have been more persistent, things wouldnt become this way right?
Life's always playing a fool of us, maybe, on me.
Things you dont want to see happening, always happened.
Its so dramatic, this sounds like a storyline to me, how i hope it is. But sad to say, its not, this is reality.
Its like a double blow for me, i've tried so hard and finally i've picked myself up and slowly getting back on track. But there again, it comes another huge blow.
But i guess life's always like this. It wont goes smoothly. Especially when it comes to love, nothing ever goes smoothly. Before a happy ending, there's always many unpleasant past. And for scorpio, it is said that our love life can rarely go smoothly. Yeah i believed in horoscope now, everything it said.
Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. But for me, i dont prefer to be kept in the dark, i dont want to be like a fool. So, its better by being honest with me.
Like i've said, yes, im sad, but i dont blame anyone.
I guess the saddest part of all was the excuses i've been finding to deceive myself. The excuses i've been finding to tell myself that everything's fine. The lies i've been coming up with to tell myself that i'm being too paranoid, thinking too much. And, the lies you have said that made me believe that i really am thinking too much.
But i guess in a relationship, there's just no right or wrong. You do what you feel like doing, and what your heart wants you to.
There are just certain things, no matter how hard you try, what you do, it doesnt gives you back what you want. No amount of effort helps.
Guess all these are fated. There's nothing much that i can do to change anything, just be strong.
Someone once told me, "When the storm ends, that's when the rainbow will come out."
From the point of time he told me that, i've been waiting and waiting, till now, i'm still wondering, when's my rainbow ever gonna appear.
I'm like forever trapped in this storm of mine, and it seems as if it will never end.
But still, i shall be strong and face it, one day it will. And my rainbow, will definitely be one of the prettiest i've ever seen.
I guess i'll just take it as a lesson learnt, and perhaps, im gonna grow, turn more matured, and knows how to handle my feelings or emotions.
I guess sometimes, we shouldnt really trust people too much, except for ourselves. And this is something i've got to learn.
Dont worry, im fine. Today will be the end of all the emo thoughts, i'll go to sleep, and once i wake up, everything's gonna be fine and back to normal.
Girl, be strong, smile and dont let others see you fall.
You can be happy, really happy, and you can get over all this shit. Life's gonna get better and better.
Over here, i wished both of you all the best. Both of you are gonna be my best friends and this will go on. Last long and i'll always be there for anyone of you.
And this few days, i've been listening to this song for so long.
Replaying and replaying because it seems like every sentence of it describes how im feeling. Listen to it, the lyrics and everything, perhaps you will know how i feel.
杨丞琳 - 我们都傻
计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了 那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱她 你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱她 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
只是问心无愧 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
还在期待会有奇迹出现
Yes, i dont deny it hurts, it hurts badly.
But if anyone were to ask me, no i dont blame them. If somebody has to be at fault, i guess it would be me.
Many things shouldnt be said, shouldnt be done. If i have been more persistent, things wouldnt become this way right?
Life's always playing a fool of us, maybe, on me.
Things you dont want to see happening, always happened.
Its so dramatic, this sounds like a storyline to me, how i hope it is. But sad to say, its not, this is reality.
Its like a double blow for me, i've tried so hard and finally i've picked myself up and slowly getting back on track. But there again, it comes another huge blow.
But i guess life's always like this. It wont goes smoothly. Especially when it comes to love, nothing ever goes smoothly. Before a happy ending, there's always many unpleasant past. And for scorpio, it is said that our love life can rarely go smoothly. Yeah i believed in horoscope now, everything it said.
Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. But for me, i dont prefer to be kept in the dark, i dont want to be like a fool. So, its better by being honest with me.
Like i've said, yes, im sad, but i dont blame anyone.
I guess the saddest part of all was the excuses i've been finding to deceive myself. The excuses i've been finding to tell myself that everything's fine. The lies i've been coming up with to tell myself that i'm being too paranoid, thinking too much. And, the lies you have said that made me believe that i really am thinking too much.
But i guess in a relationship, there's just no right or wrong. You do what you feel like doing, and what your heart wants you to.
There are just certain things, no matter how hard you try, what you do, it doesnt gives you back what you want. No amount of effort helps.
Guess all these are fated. There's nothing much that i can do to change anything, just be strong.
Someone once told me, "When the storm ends, that's when the rainbow will come out."
From the point of time he told me that, i've been waiting and waiting, till now, i'm still wondering, when's my rainbow ever gonna appear.
I'm like forever trapped in this storm of mine, and it seems as if it will never end.
But still, i shall be strong and face it, one day it will. And my rainbow, will definitely be one of the prettiest i've ever seen.
I guess i'll just take it as a lesson learnt, and perhaps, im gonna grow, turn more matured, and knows how to handle my feelings or emotions.
I guess sometimes, we shouldnt really trust people too much, except for ourselves. And this is something i've got to learn.
Dont worry, im fine. Today will be the end of all the emo thoughts, i'll go to sleep, and once i wake up, everything's gonna be fine and back to normal.
Girl, be strong, smile and dont let others see you fall.
You can be happy, really happy, and you can get over all this shit. Life's gonna get better and better.
Over here, i wished both of you all the best. Both of you are gonna be my best friends and this will go on. Last long and i'll always be there for anyone of you.
And this few days, i've been listening to this song for so long.
Replaying and replaying because it seems like every sentence of it describes how im feeling. Listen to it, the lyrics and everything, perhaps you will know how i feel.
杨丞琳 - 我们都傻
计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我的
倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了 那些数不清的爱情轨迹
你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱她 你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现
你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱她 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
谁没有为爱做过傻事
只是问心无愧 讽刺也无所谓
我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
还在期待会有奇迹出现
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