Holidays gonna be over soon,

Hi people, im kind of bored and im here to blog a little.
Okay this few days i've been out shopping with friends because this is my last week of holidays and i definitely need to spend them wisely.
Gusto had a performance for sb on tue, its like the first we juniors perform infront of a crowd. And seriously, the whole of sb, there's really quite a lot of ppl.
Well, its all stunts up, though there are some minor mistakes here and there, but still, well done everyone :D

Well, just a photo taken after our routine.
And anw, im feeling much better after my dear girl told me so much things. I guess in life, you really cant compare yourself with others because everyone is different. And i guess its true, no point asking for everything to be perfect in my life because its definitely impossible. No point grumbling about how unfair life is because it wouldnt change a single thing. Just get over it, like what she told me right.
Some days like today really makes me happy. Simple pleasures like this, it can brightens up my day. Nothing exactly happened, just that we spend time together, we talked, we laughed, thats all.
Well but anyway, school reopens on next monday. Time flies, school holiday is one and a half month, and its gone like this. After school reopens, its gonna be year 2, and i believe the modules will be harder. Looking at my shitty timetable makes me wanna faint alr.
Alright, some days are quite good, only 2 hrs of lesson. But for some days like tuesday, its like a damn long day from 8 till around 11?
Okay wish me good luck.
Well, i think thats all i've got to say. Gonna spend this last few days of holiday wisely, since there's also a break from training! :D
Gonna get plenty of rest :D
Thats all, bye people! :D

Happy pill.

Too much crying this few days. I guess im really emotional recently. I need to stop those tears.
Some people said, they cried too much till their tears dried.
Yeah, if tears can really dry up, i wished mine could. I wanna stop myself from crying, it just doesnt feel good.
I wish there's a happy pill, which keeps me free from troubles and everything else. If there's one thing i want, it would be a happy pill. In this way, no one would ever need to be so emotional anymore.
Yes, but lets face reality, like what everyone told me, there's no such thing.
And i promise, i'll overcome all this that im going through, im doing it for all those who cared for me, i know, they wont want to see me like this.
And i know, im strong enough, to get through all this. Im strong enough, to get over this issue, to stop getting so emotional whenever i think about this.
And over here, i just want to say, im really thankful to those who stood by me, supported me. I was touched by everything you all said, and did for me. And over here, i wanna say, im not that weak, and i wont just give up like this. I wont want to waste all the efforts i've put in, as well as all the efforts you all have put in.
Although i would say up till now, i still cant get over this issue, but one day, i will. Because i guess all of you are right, this is reality, although reality is cruel, but we have to accept it. The world is unfair, but so what? It wont turn fair just because you're whining and crying everyday. And perhaps, i just got to accept the cruelty of life and move on. For things that i have no control over, i can only accept it and move on. And those that can be changed, i should just do it.
Though many times its not easy to accept reality, but i will try, and i have to. I guess only by facing the facts and doing what i can do, thats the only way to get over the issue. I will try.
Sorry for spamming emo posts recently, i'll get over it. I'll be strong enough to get through all this, i'm fine.

Those repeated problems..

Feeling so frustrated with myself. I wished, i could get rid of all those negative thoughts.
I've told myself, many people told me, its alright. Sometimes i manage to convince myself, its fine, move on.
But everytime, i'll get stuck with the same problem. Its always back to the same problem. And thats when everything unhappy happens.
I know, i've lost. I didnt manage to get over this issue. Though i did try, for a year, the past one year, i tried to, but till now, i didnt.
Its difficult, so difficult to hold back the tears. Whenever others ask me why, i have to shake my head and say im fine. I have to stop those tears from falling. I know people are sick and tired of seeing me emo, i am too. I want to stop feeling unhappy about this, i want to smile, laugh, go crazy with them everytime. But why? Why did it have to end off like that?
Im thankful to those who cared for me. But, do they really understand how it feels? Sometimes it easy to say, its easy to tell people what to do. But when you are in the situation yourself, you wont find it so easy. I mean everyone knows it right? Tonight, i'll wipe my tears, i will be fine when i wake up tomorrow. But still, i know, this problem still exists. Its not solved, i know no one can help me, except for myself. I have to let go of whats holding me, and move on. But its not easy. Everytime i wipe my tears and tell myself its alright, i'll really wake up being fine the next day. But soon, i will still get stuck with the same issue. Call me stupid or whatever to get myself into such a situation, but i cant help it, really cant.
Yes, and now, im gonna turn in, wake up being fine tml. But really, i know i didnt solve my problem.

有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药?

Opportunities

Should i be feeling happy or sad? Should i be smiling or crying?
By right, yeah initially, i should be feeling happy.
But somehow, because of something else, im not.
Yeah, i do know, those opportunities dont come often.
Opportunities are only for those who know how to cherish.
Maybe i didnt grab them in the past. And because of this, i've really regretted. Its like everytime when i said "no", i wished i didnt say it.
Everytime when i looked away, i wished i had stepped forward.
And really, everytime i rejected, i wished i had accepted.
Its a pity when you see those opportunities past by you, stop by others, and they make good use of it. And somehow you wish, you could be a little more daring, a little more courageous, and ask for them instead of them coming to you.
Maybe yes its true, if i want to succeed, i have to try all ways.
Not trying to be emo here, but im just trying to sort out my thinking.
I dont want myself to get so frustrated, get so sad everytime i think about it. In fact, i should be happy about today right? But maybe, because the issue has been on my mind for a really long time, and i hadnt find myself a solution to it.
But i cant change the past, i can only cherish the present, and not repeat those mistakes in the future. Yes, perhaps this is the best way to stay happy.

April, you'll be fine right?

Its the start of April, marks the beginning of many different and new things.
New semester, in my second year, its gonna be kind of different i know.
New batch of juniors coming in to gusto, we're gonna be seniors.
There's many things i need to adapt to definitely, and many things i need learn and change.
I really hope april will be a good month.