Somehow i couldnt believe how fast time flies.
Yeah somehow ever since i came to poly, time passed by really fast, you know its the last one or two weeks of my year one in poly? After all my exams, after 4 papers, im gonna finish year one, and go on to year two.
Alright, i know i should be studying now instead of talking about all these things which have not happen yet. But but but, i have studied for quite long today, and im only spending like a little while for blogging, this isnt too much right?
Alright, you know im soooooooooooo looking forward to after exams, there's so much time for me to relax, though i think i still have to go for training.
And anyway, i really want to go shopping!!!! Arrhhhhh wth, but im like freaking broke.
Yeah yeah my angbao money has been deposited into the bank, coz i havent been saving up for the previous few years, and i feel kinda guilty, so i put most of it into the bank, left with a little little, yeah really little.
And wtf, i think im such a muddlehead, coz previously i bought this opi nail polish from a blogshop owner coz apparently they came to sp to sell, and then, it was out of stock so she refunded me the money. She transfer the money to my bank acc, together with my friend's refund, and wtf, im soooooooooooooooooooooooooo careless to actually gave the wrong acc number! Freaking angry with myself. Coz i actually refer to one of the transaction receipt, and the number i gave was one of a blogshop's acc number. Wtf, and i have to contact the blogshop owner, hoping that she will be nice enough to verify it and transfer back to my account. If not, i will not only lose my refund, and i also have to pay for my friend's refund! Oh gosh, why am i so stupid? Sometimes i really wish my brain can function better.
Okay enough of it, no point talking so much about it, i guess i can only pray for the person to reply back to me uh. Im so broke and some shit like this have to happen, makes me even more broke, sighhhh, well i can only blame my stupid brain.
Okay, and i guess i seriously need to find a job in the holidays. Yeah, but im not sure if training is still on, if we're going for competition, definitely we have to go back for training. And if we're not, i think we still have to go back.
So tell me, how am i gonna work? Sighhhhh, nvm im gonna find a way, really need money! I need to spend, like seriously, i really wanna go shopping!
You know sometimes i really envy those rich kids, who dont even need to work and their money just came from their parents. Yeah maybe you may say they are so dependent on their parents, but the point is, they just dont need to go through hardships.
So you see, why am i always complaining on my blog, complaining that im so freaking broke, because i really am.
Im not those kids who stay at home, and their money just fall from the sky. They dont need to worry about every single thing they buy, whereas for me, whenever i go shopping, just one single item i have to think really long, coz i dont want to waste every single cent and dollar of mine.
Okay whatever, the point is, i really need to work alright. Maybe you will think im so stupid, to go and work just for shopping. But it isnt all for shopping, there's more to it. Much much more reasons why i need to work.
Enough of money, seriously, im always broke.
But seriously, speaking about shopping, i really feel like going overseas. Especially thailand, like seriously, the stuff there are so cheap. But wth, i think i can just wait slowly, i wonder when's the next time my family will go for a holiday uh. I think will be faster for me to save up myself and go with my friends luh.
Alright, and something so unlucky happen to me.
You see, i wanted to go for a swim or a run today. Finally, after thinking for really long, im so determine to go running. I got changed, prepared, and left the house. The moment i step out of my blog, it started raining.
I was so unlucky coz it didnt rain while i was changing, it didnt rain before i left the house. It just rain the moment i left the block.
Yeah whatever, used to it. Im always that unlucky.
Well anw, gonna go to bed soon.
Accounting paper on monday, please please please let me do well for it. I've got high expectations for accounting, partly because i took poa in secondary school.
But im so afraid of disappointments, just like during the o levels, i thought my poa would be able to get an A1, but i got an A2.
So please, dont leave me with disappointments alright? I did work hard for this whole year, and for this paper.
And obviously, for other papers too. My last paper is next next monday, and then it will be freedom. Then i'll go and think about how the hell im gonna earn more money.
Yeah thats all, good luck to those having their papers next week too, and also for those who already started their exams.
Blog again after all my papers, goodbye :D
February 20, 2011
February 15, 2011
Maybe, its still a lesson learnt
Hi people, I just finished two presentations today, and I am left with a last gems presentation on friday and that will be the end of all my projects for year one. Hopefully I'll do well for that two presentations coz it means a lot to me yeah. And so basically, this week is my study week and I'm gonna chiong like mad for my revision. Quite worried for my marketing paper, luckily its the last paper and I hope I've got enough time to prepare. Wish me luck for my preparations for exams alright? Coz most of the papers for this exam has a heavy weightage. Can't screw it up for sure.
Gonna sleep now and wake up earlier tml to continue on with the revision.
Oh and hope you guys have had a wonderful valentines day though its alr over.
Sometimes, its like a lesson learnt.
Through small little things like this, we get to understand life better, see things clearer.
Those ups and downs are part of life, and maybe, we just got to accept all those.
Gonna sleep now and wake up earlier tml to continue on with the revision.
Oh and hope you guys have had a wonderful valentines day though its alr over.
Sometimes, its like a lesson learnt.
Through small little things like this, we get to understand life better, see things clearer.
Those ups and downs are part of life, and maybe, we just got to accept all those.
February 8, 2011
Happy Chinese New Year! :D
So basically, this is my cny.
Didnt manage to take any photos on day 1. Well, i was quite unhappy in fact, so nvm about it.
Day 2
Went out to plaza sing to watch a movie and had dinner with family coz we had no where to go.
Day 3
Spend the whole day with gusto people. Went to melody house at first, we had to leave at 7 plus, so we headed to felicia's house to continue our gambling. Alright i swear melody's room is super duper nice! Love her room aloootttt! Took tons and tons of pictures in her room, its all on fb btw. Im just lazy to post them up here.
Day 4
Day 4 was also with gusto, went to patrick's house instead. Continue gambling coz we are so addicted to it. And overall for that 2 days, i won a little bit, errr about 7,8 dollars i guess. Okay, my cny was quite fun with gusto!
Yeah so thats it for cny, dont know if i will still go around for house visiting or whatsoever.
Alright and something else, i think I've finally decided.
Decided that i should try my best to be a happy girl. I shouldnt think so negatively, shouldnt think of so many silly things.
Doesnt really matter if life is unfair, yeah, but i cant do anything about it right?
The only thing i can do is to be happier each and every day, so that my everyday will be meaningful.
开心也是一天， 不开心也是一天， 所以应该开心一点。
我不会这么容易放弃， 我会继续等。
我相信我一定能等到那一天。
Smile, because your smile is worth it.
Be happy, because you will make others happier.
Didnt manage to take any photos on day 1. Well, i was quite unhappy in fact, so nvm about it.
Day 2
Went out to plaza sing to watch a movie and had dinner with family coz we had no where to go.
Day 3
Spend the whole day with gusto people. Went to melody house at first, we had to leave at 7 plus, so we headed to felicia's house to continue our gambling. Alright i swear melody's room is super duper nice! Love her room aloootttt! Took tons and tons of pictures in her room, its all on fb btw. Im just lazy to post them up here.
Day 4
Day 4 was also with gusto, went to patrick's house instead. Continue gambling coz we are so addicted to it. And overall for that 2 days, i won a little bit, errr about 7,8 dollars i guess. Okay, my cny was quite fun with gusto!
Yeah so thats it for cny, dont know if i will still go around for house visiting or whatsoever.
Alright and something else, i think I've finally decided.
Decided that i should try my best to be a happy girl. I shouldnt think so negatively, shouldnt think of so many silly things.
Doesnt really matter if life is unfair, yeah, but i cant do anything about it right?
The only thing i can do is to be happier each and every day, so that my everyday will be meaningful.
开心也是一天， 不开心也是一天， 所以应该开心一点。
我不会这么容易放弃， 我会继续等。
我相信我一定能等到那一天。
Smile, because your smile is worth it.
Be happy, because you will make others happier.
February 2, 2011
Just have to get use to it,
Happy chinese new year everyone!
I hope you guys have had a nice reunion dinner, hope you guys will enjoy your chinese new year.
I always thought of cny as a really boring occasion, coz i dont really have anything to do during cny.
I would be at my grandma's house, and there's really nth much for me to do there..
Perhaps the only thing for me to look forward to was the collection of ang bao and to be able to dress up nicely, and maybe the goodies.
Yeah, perhaps... But every year, i'll still wish for that day to come, coz it was kinda special, to me, coz i guess thats the day all our relatives get together....
So you know, i really thought of it as a special day, its like a family day for us, coz i rarely have one, and i dont even rmb when's the last time i ever had it...
But, its kinda sad and pathetic when this only day is ruined, by some small little silly issues.
So often, i dont add a "happy" to my chinese new year, coz i obviously know that it wouldnt be that happy.
You know sometimes, you really hope things can change, or at least, remain as how it is. But sadly, it didnt, the situation may worsen, till a point of time where you really cant take it anymore.
Its really kind of pathetic, when you dont even understand why should people behave in such a way. I dont see a point in continuing the situation like this.
You know, i really wanted a break, a proper break from school because i was so tired, so stress up from work.
I was so disappointed with my fom results coz i really did put in so much effort even though i was so busy with cheer, even though we met with difficulties this time round. And yet, what was the results seen? Is it even worth the effort?
I was really so disappointed, so sad, to the extend which i asked myself what was all those effort and hardwork for? For a stupid B grade?
So i wanted a break, a short one, before i can finally work really damn hard for the final exams.
But this break, apparently didnt make me happier, it didnt make me more relieve, isnt it?
I dont know, maybe sometimes you have been looking at things from your own point of view, and you couldnt really see things clearly.
And maybe sometimes, you thought things have been so difficult for you, but you didnt really think of others.
I know, i really know, it is difficult, but what about me? Was it easy for me to go through all this?
And perhaps, i still have to continue going through it, and maybe, its not gonna end, never.
Sometimes we say, we hate people who are fake, hate people with fake smiles, fake tears, fake feelings, hate those who are so fake to others.
But maybe i should say, perhaps sometimes people should remain a little fake, because being yourself, showing your hatred to others, it isnt necessary the best, because it will just cause problems, more problems.
I wish i could smile a little more, be a little less emo, coz i dont want to spread my emo-ness to others. But... in some situations, you are just not given a choice.
Yeah, but maybe i should be glad, a little more happy, that i've found someone, who can really understand how i feel, since she's the same as me. But maybe, she's still a little luckier.
Whatever it is, i'll still try to stay optimistic, i know whatever i've typed out contradicts this.
But i will, and i have been trying.
I'll just hope that this is a happy chinese new year, and i mean it, really happy one.
Hope you guys enjoy your new year, collect more hong baos alright!
I've never wanted everything to be perfect, but maybe, the only reason why i cant be always happy is i didnt know how to look beyond those imperfections.
And this, i just have to learn to do it.
I hope you guys have had a nice reunion dinner, hope you guys will enjoy your chinese new year.
I always thought of cny as a really boring occasion, coz i dont really have anything to do during cny.
I would be at my grandma's house, and there's really nth much for me to do there..
Perhaps the only thing for me to look forward to was the collection of ang bao and to be able to dress up nicely, and maybe the goodies.
Yeah, perhaps... But every year, i'll still wish for that day to come, coz it was kinda special, to me, coz i guess thats the day all our relatives get together....
So you know, i really thought of it as a special day, its like a family day for us, coz i rarely have one, and i dont even rmb when's the last time i ever had it...
But, its kinda sad and pathetic when this only day is ruined, by some small little silly issues.
So often, i dont add a "happy" to my chinese new year, coz i obviously know that it wouldnt be that happy.
You know sometimes, you really hope things can change, or at least, remain as how it is. But sadly, it didnt, the situation may worsen, till a point of time where you really cant take it anymore.
Its really kind of pathetic, when you dont even understand why should people behave in such a way. I dont see a point in continuing the situation like this.
You know, i really wanted a break, a proper break from school because i was so tired, so stress up from work.
I was so disappointed with my fom results coz i really did put in so much effort even though i was so busy with cheer, even though we met with difficulties this time round. And yet, what was the results seen? Is it even worth the effort?
I was really so disappointed, so sad, to the extend which i asked myself what was all those effort and hardwork for? For a stupid B grade?
So i wanted a break, a short one, before i can finally work really damn hard for the final exams.
But this break, apparently didnt make me happier, it didnt make me more relieve, isnt it?
I dont know, maybe sometimes you have been looking at things from your own point of view, and you couldnt really see things clearly.
And maybe sometimes, you thought things have been so difficult for you, but you didnt really think of others.
I know, i really know, it is difficult, but what about me? Was it easy for me to go through all this?
And perhaps, i still have to continue going through it, and maybe, its not gonna end, never.
Sometimes we say, we hate people who are fake, hate people with fake smiles, fake tears, fake feelings, hate those who are so fake to others.
But maybe i should say, perhaps sometimes people should remain a little fake, because being yourself, showing your hatred to others, it isnt necessary the best, because it will just cause problems, more problems.
I wish i could smile a little more, be a little less emo, coz i dont want to spread my emo-ness to others. But... in some situations, you are just not given a choice.
Yeah, but maybe i should be glad, a little more happy, that i've found someone, who can really understand how i feel, since she's the same as me. But maybe, she's still a little luckier.
Whatever it is, i'll still try to stay optimistic, i know whatever i've typed out contradicts this.
But i will, and i have been trying.
I'll just hope that this is a happy chinese new year, and i mean it, really happy one.
Hope you guys enjoy your new year, collect more hong baos alright!
I've never wanted everything to be perfect, but maybe, the only reason why i cant be always happy is i didnt know how to look beyond those imperfections.
And this, i just have to learn to do it.
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