Someone like you

It has been so long since i last posted here, more than a year ago..
I realized i also turn to this little space of mine when i'm feeling helpless, when i need somewhere to say everything and this seems to be the most suitable place.

I'm racing with time. I wanna hold you so tight, but i can't seem to.
Cause i dont even know what you are thinking in your mind.. Sometimes you are nice to me, but sometimes it seems like you just want me to get out of your sight.
You know, in my eyes, you aren't perfect, i find a lot of flaws on you. You always bully me, you always say mean words to me, you always make me angry here and there. But still, i find myself hopelessly in love with you. For months. And now, you are gonna be gone, so what do i do? Just let you go and hate myself?
What can i do? Try to grab onto you and let you hate me? Both ways i'll suffer won't I?

I really dont know how someone like you would make me fall for you. You aren't perfect, but everytime i see you, i think you are. The way you look when you are deep in thought, the way you look when you are seriously trying to solve a problem, the way you look when you are doing your work. There's the playful side of you, the way you look when you joke around, the way you look when you play with everything, the way you look when you tease me. How do i forget? How can i forget?

Someone out there please advise me. I'm running out of time...