Some time ago, i actually asked myself what's happiness, or how am I really gonna be happy. Then i figured out the answer. Perhaps people will think when everything is all perfect, you will be really happy. But we all know, nothing will be perfect. Who's gonna define perfect for us? As long as we don't learn how to be satisfied with what we have, you aren't gonna think your life is perfect. So, the only way, is to look beyond all the imperfections. Find my happiness through all these imperfections in my life, and never gonna ask for too much.
I've been thinking alot yesterday night, do i really want to see the same things happening again? No never. But what really happened, i cant blame others entirely, because i was partly at fault.
So now, i guess its time for me to retreat from there. I wish to let go of all these, let things remain as it is, and so, i'll never get hurt.
I dont know if i should still trust you, sometimes trusting others too much will get yourself hurt. Perhaps it was all the hopes that i have on you, but i shouldnt even carry any kind of hopes.
You picked me up, i know, i clearly know you helped me alot. If its not for you, i dont know how i managed to face those tough times. But, i just dont know if you are still the same you. I never changed, never once did. I just wanted myself to be a little stronger, but i still missed those times. Even though it was tough, but i miss those times when i had someone to trust, someone whom i can really talk to. Now, i dont know if i still can, but i decided not to think about such things anymore.
But anyway, i've deactivated my twitter account for now. Apparently twitter only allows me to deactivate it for one month if not they will permanently delete my account, so perhaps i will reactivate it within a month? If i want to, or maybe no? I shall see. But not to worry, i'm good here. I just managed to think through all those things last night. And hopefully a month free from twitter will make everything better?
Alright, i've been listening to these two songs from kim jong kook. Just sharing it though. I'm not crazy over kpop, just that i've been watching running man recently and i like kim jong kook so was just listening to his songs.
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