You know how it feels to be doing something you don't like?
You know how it feels to keep pushing yourself when you're already so tired?
You know how it feels to keep running away from the problem even though you know you shouldnt?
You know how it feels when you see others being so happy but you're not having the same feeling?
You know how it feels when you just wish you could not bother or care about anything but you know you just can't?
Perhaps none of you know how it feels.
I dont know why, it seems like im always making the wrong decisions. If only i have been more persistent, more determined and not so fickle minded, i guess things wouldnt be like this now.
If only i had more courage at that time, things wouldnt be like this now.
I'm so tired trying to cope with all these, and now its only during holidays. What about school reopens? I dont know how to face all these problems...
It is times like this when i really feels so helpless, times like this when i really wished i can just hide in a corner, not care about any things.
But you see, i can't be so selfish. I made the decision, how can i allow others to bear the consequence?
But... the kind of feeling, there's no way you can stop thinking about it.
I'm sorry, i know i wasnt of any help, idk how i can help either.
I wish it wasn't me, perhaps someone else would do a better job.
You know, this seems like an honour, a glory or something, but now, to me, it feels like a burden, something which keep pulling me down.
I don't want to see others getting so tired and trying to help me clear up my mess when i am the one responsible.
But trying to do it myself is really so tiring. You know that kind of tired which i'm refering to? Not as if i had a good sleep tonight and tml i wake up, im gonna be fine. NO. The kind of tiredness, its mentally. Feels as if there's so many things, and they accumulated, so much that i really dont know how to get rid of it.
If i could turn back time, there's so many things i would do, and so many things i wouldn't do.
I guess i owe others too many apologies, and too many thankyou.
If you were here, i would feel so much better.
I dont need you to listen to me, dont need you to know whats going on, i just wish that you are around to talk to me.
But no, you're not. Especially when i needed you the most.
September 30, 2011
September 25, 2011
New experiences, memories and friends :D
Before i start, warning first, this is a very long post!
Anyway, 4 days in ipoh have come to an end. I've got back many nice memories from that place, made awesome friends. On the first day, everyone seemed to be so unfamiliar with each other. So, after a 10 hours train ride, we finally reached ipoh. Then we took a bus to our campsite, earth camp. On my way there, me and fec were complaining about how bad the place is. The campsite is located deep inside some kind of forest, everywhere around was trees. After reaching there, i seriously dislike the place so much coz there were so many cats around. Maybe i didnt said this before, but i am really scared of cats. So throughout my 4 days there, i kept screaming whenever i saw a cat nearby. Anw, the campsite is some kind of eco-friendly campsite. The toilets there was from recycled water tanks, we bathed in rainwater, which i apparently didnt really like it alot. There's lots of mosquitoes, bugs and weird insects around. I felt it was worse than other campsites which i've went before. Maybe to some people, they feel that the place is just like nature, but i just couldn't adapt to the environment. And on the first night, we also had to choose our buddy, who is someone we will depend on for the rest of the days there. So we were told not to choose someone whom we were close with, but someone whom we dont really speak to or dont really like. Yeah and so we did, most of us stepped out of our comfort zone and chose someone we aren't close with. And we had to think of a group name. Our group called ourselves "grassroot leaders" since we were at earth camp, its like nature and we are all leaders. Lol i know it is so random but i thought that we were actually quite creative to think of it.
Alright then for day 2, we had some activities. Firstly we did kayaking at kampar river. It was fun coz it was actually my first time kayaking. I was with my buddy and we had a little practice first. I was so noob at it and didnt really know how to control the direction, so we ended up going straight into a bush with tree branches sticking out. We had to lower our heads to go through but all the disgusting branches and insects ended up dropping on our kayak. Then after that we kind of switched partners and tried kayaking again. This time round we went straight into the bush a few more times and it was really painful coz some of the bigger and thicker branches hit my head. We also capsized once after hitting the bush, but i feel capsizing was fun, i floated in the water awhile before some of my teammates help me up to my kayak. So after that we had another activity, which is the high rope challenge. We went to mountain school and tried the high elements. There's actually 3 different elements. The first one is the easiest, followed by the second and third one. The third one is at about 9m high. I was rather scared at first, because i didnt try it before. So again, we had to go with our buddy. I wanted to try either first or second element, but the queue was too long, so in the end, i told my buddy we shall try the third one first since there was not much people there. I guess most people didnt dare to try that first. So we went, we were the third pair of buddy and i was the first girl there to try. So we went up, after climbing the giant ladder i was already very tired, my legs were trembling, because i was tired and perhaps also because it was too high and i was so scared. So for the third element there are also several parts to it. I kind of regretted trying that element first after i climbed the giant ladder because i realized i wasnt mentally prepared. But i've got no choice. So we went on to try the first part of it. I dont know what it is called, but there is just a rope and we had to walk on it to reach the other ends, there were only ropes on top for us to hold onto, nothing at the side. I personally felt that was the most scary. I took my first step out, my heart was beating so fast, my buddy was infront of me and he encouraged me alot. I was scared, but i told myself, there's no way i can turn back, if i want to get down, the only way is to complete it. If i don't move forward, i will just be stuck there. And the instructors have a rule, your buddy needs to be always near you, i think only one arm distance away. So if i don't move, he can't move either. So i did, i challenged myself and kept moving forward. I was really thankful to my buddy coz he encouraged and motivated me a lot throughout. If it was in the past, i would be screaming and shouting like a mad woman up there, but i didnt. And the trainer even said that i am very good at concentrating and focusing :D So i went on, moved forward to complete the rest of the parts. My favourite was the forth part, flying skateboard. We just stood on a board and held on to a bar and just "skated" across to the other end. And the last part was flying fox which was also very fun. You know, i was so proud, so proud of myself when i finished it. I had a phobia of height and i did the third element first, i didnt stop, i kept moving on until i finished it. My phobia of height wasn't that bad after i joined cheerleading, but still, that height was much higher than the kind of height i've went for in cheerleading. The trainer told me, " if you can deal with such intense pressure at that high level, you can actually deal with a lot of problems in the future". I was really proud and happy for myself. I know i sounded as if im bragging, but whatever, i know i've done a good job that day, so yes, im proud to say it out.
So for day 3, we had swift water rescue in the morning. We learned few techniques on how to rescue people. So firstly we tried how to cross shallow water, the water was flowing so fast and its really difficult to cross over. Then we tried how to use a throw bag. Basically just throw it out for someone who's in the water to get the rope. So we went in buddy pair, one person will be floating down from upstream and the other buddy to throw the throw bag. I was the first person to be floating down and i was quite lost. My buddy missed the throw and luckily someone else saved me. Yup so they have a few backups just in case the buddy miss it. And when my buddy went, i missed the throw too. Actually i've never did a successful throw haha, i really didnt know how to. My facilitator said it isn't about the amount of strength used, its the technique, but somehow i just cant master it. Alright, then after that we went somewhere else where the water flows even faster. We were taught how to swim across in any case if our raft capsize and we fell into the water. In the swift water, when we swimmed, we have to swim at 45 degrees upstream. Yeap so we tried flowing down from upstream and swam at a certain point. It was really fun. Alright, then we tried how to overturn the raft if our raft capsized, and climbing back up. The climbing part is difficult in the deeper water, basically a lot of teamwork is needed for everyone to get back up on the raft. So after that, we had a quick lunch and everyone went back for white water rafting. That was the fun part. It was a few hours of rafting, there were many rapids along the way. Each raft have a guide with us and he really helped us alot. And after that, we had a competition. My raft came in first! We took 28 minutes to kayak back to the campsite! A lot of teamwork is needed for that. I was the leader for the raft, and im so thankful that my other followers cooperated with me and listened to all my instructions. So at night, we went to ipoh town to walk for a while. We went to a pasar malam, there was nothing much there, didnt buy anything back because the pasar malam there is just like singapore's one. Just that theirs is permanently there, unlike singapore one which will only be there for about a few weeks.
Day 4, we had our last activity which is to appreciate our teammaters. We were given pebbles, but we called them gems. So we were suppose to give these gems to people whom we felt have helped us. So first person we are suppose to give to is our buddy. It was quite awkward actually because we were suppose to say things like: "You are a gem in my heart, I gave you this gem because...". It just feels very awkward when we had to say it face to face yeah. Then after giving it to our buddy, we can give it to anyone else. But i really appreciated those who gave me the gems, and those whom i've given the gems to. And others who have helped me, but because of time constraint i didn't give it to. Yeap then after that, home sweet home, another 10 hours of train ride. Reached singapore at about 9.30pm at night, luckily there's my to send me back home. Imagaine im so tired and have to take train all the way home. Wanted to cab but im so broke recently and didnt want to waste money. His mum went to bukit panjang to drop gary off first, it was so near his house but he still decided to drove the rest of us to redhill. Yes my drove omg he is so smart, i dont even know how others can drive. I cant even remember the roads in singapore :X And he drove so well. Okay so thankyou my.
Alright so four days there, i've learnt a lot really. Through all the activities, the facilitators and trainers actually taught us different concepts. Some of the concepts also include the 7 habits which i've learned before in ctss. But this is so much more different. They made it so much more interesting and understandable by using the activities, and allowing us to see the concepts in a clearer manner when we do the activities. I'm more aware of myself, know what kind of leader i am, and i hope for all those things that i've learnt, i can apply it to my life and try to help my club in whatever way i can. I've made so many new awesome friends, they have helped me so much this few days. Especially those in my group, whereby we did the activities together. And also my buddy, who have help and encourage me alot. Throughout the few days, we often have to take a walk with our buddy and have a talk. I thought it was awkward, but still, it is through all the talks that i've learnt how to appreciate others. So i hope the friendship with this bunch of friends would last because i definitely think that leap camp is the best camp i've went to so far. I've brought back many nice memories with me, definitely it will stay with me for long. I've also got a lot of mosquito bites, cuts, bruises and also sunburn from the camp. I think the cuts and bruises were from the kayaking. And now my face is so red, peeling so badly, my hands too :(
But still, its worth it alright. So time for pictures now!
Around the campsite...
At ipoh town, the food..
On the train, we were all so bored. So we spam photos!
My group
My precious gems given by others.
Certificate :D
Yup thats about all, the fun have ended, im gonna start work next week and i'll take the time left to enjoy my holiday before it ends.
Bye people! Have a good week ahead! :D
Anyway, 4 days in ipoh have come to an end. I've got back many nice memories from that place, made awesome friends. On the first day, everyone seemed to be so unfamiliar with each other. So, after a 10 hours train ride, we finally reached ipoh. Then we took a bus to our campsite, earth camp. On my way there, me and fec were complaining about how bad the place is. The campsite is located deep inside some kind of forest, everywhere around was trees. After reaching there, i seriously dislike the place so much coz there were so many cats around. Maybe i didnt said this before, but i am really scared of cats. So throughout my 4 days there, i kept screaming whenever i saw a cat nearby. Anw, the campsite is some kind of eco-friendly campsite. The toilets there was from recycled water tanks, we bathed in rainwater, which i apparently didnt really like it alot. There's lots of mosquitoes, bugs and weird insects around. I felt it was worse than other campsites which i've went before. Maybe to some people, they feel that the place is just like nature, but i just couldn't adapt to the environment. And on the first night, we also had to choose our buddy, who is someone we will depend on for the rest of the days there. So we were told not to choose someone whom we were close with, but someone whom we dont really speak to or dont really like. Yeah and so we did, most of us stepped out of our comfort zone and chose someone we aren't close with. And we had to think of a group name. Our group called ourselves "grassroot leaders" since we were at earth camp, its like nature and we are all leaders. Lol i know it is so random but i thought that we were actually quite creative to think of it.
Alright then for day 2, we had some activities. Firstly we did kayaking at kampar river. It was fun coz it was actually my first time kayaking. I was with my buddy and we had a little practice first. I was so noob at it and didnt really know how to control the direction, so we ended up going straight into a bush with tree branches sticking out. We had to lower our heads to go through but all the disgusting branches and insects ended up dropping on our kayak. Then after that we kind of switched partners and tried kayaking again. This time round we went straight into the bush a few more times and it was really painful coz some of the bigger and thicker branches hit my head. We also capsized once after hitting the bush, but i feel capsizing was fun, i floated in the water awhile before some of my teammates help me up to my kayak. So after that we had another activity, which is the high rope challenge. We went to mountain school and tried the high elements. There's actually 3 different elements. The first one is the easiest, followed by the second and third one. The third one is at about 9m high. I was rather scared at first, because i didnt try it before. So again, we had to go with our buddy. I wanted to try either first or second element, but the queue was too long, so in the end, i told my buddy we shall try the third one first since there was not much people there. I guess most people didnt dare to try that first. So we went, we were the third pair of buddy and i was the first girl there to try. So we went up, after climbing the giant ladder i was already very tired, my legs were trembling, because i was tired and perhaps also because it was too high and i was so scared. So for the third element there are also several parts to it. I kind of regretted trying that element first after i climbed the giant ladder because i realized i wasnt mentally prepared. But i've got no choice. So we went on to try the first part of it. I dont know what it is called, but there is just a rope and we had to walk on it to reach the other ends, there were only ropes on top for us to hold onto, nothing at the side. I personally felt that was the most scary. I took my first step out, my heart was beating so fast, my buddy was infront of me and he encouraged me alot. I was scared, but i told myself, there's no way i can turn back, if i want to get down, the only way is to complete it. If i don't move forward, i will just be stuck there. And the instructors have a rule, your buddy needs to be always near you, i think only one arm distance away. So if i don't move, he can't move either. So i did, i challenged myself and kept moving forward. I was really thankful to my buddy coz he encouraged and motivated me a lot throughout. If it was in the past, i would be screaming and shouting like a mad woman up there, but i didnt. And the trainer even said that i am very good at concentrating and focusing :D So i went on, moved forward to complete the rest of the parts. My favourite was the forth part, flying skateboard. We just stood on a board and held on to a bar and just "skated" across to the other end. And the last part was flying fox which was also very fun. You know, i was so proud, so proud of myself when i finished it. I had a phobia of height and i did the third element first, i didnt stop, i kept moving on until i finished it. My phobia of height wasn't that bad after i joined cheerleading, but still, that height was much higher than the kind of height i've went for in cheerleading. The trainer told me, " if you can deal with such intense pressure at that high level, you can actually deal with a lot of problems in the future". I was really proud and happy for myself. I know i sounded as if im bragging, but whatever, i know i've done a good job that day, so yes, im proud to say it out.
So for day 3, we had swift water rescue in the morning. We learned few techniques on how to rescue people. So firstly we tried how to cross shallow water, the water was flowing so fast and its really difficult to cross over. Then we tried how to use a throw bag. Basically just throw it out for someone who's in the water to get the rope. So we went in buddy pair, one person will be floating down from upstream and the other buddy to throw the throw bag. I was the first person to be floating down and i was quite lost. My buddy missed the throw and luckily someone else saved me. Yup so they have a few backups just in case the buddy miss it. And when my buddy went, i missed the throw too. Actually i've never did a successful throw haha, i really didnt know how to. My facilitator said it isn't about the amount of strength used, its the technique, but somehow i just cant master it. Alright, then after that we went somewhere else where the water flows even faster. We were taught how to swim across in any case if our raft capsize and we fell into the water. In the swift water, when we swimmed, we have to swim at 45 degrees upstream. Yeap so we tried flowing down from upstream and swam at a certain point. It was really fun. Alright, then we tried how to overturn the raft if our raft capsized, and climbing back up. The climbing part is difficult in the deeper water, basically a lot of teamwork is needed for everyone to get back up on the raft. So after that, we had a quick lunch and everyone went back for white water rafting. That was the fun part. It was a few hours of rafting, there were many rapids along the way. Each raft have a guide with us and he really helped us alot. And after that, we had a competition. My raft came in first! We took 28 minutes to kayak back to the campsite! A lot of teamwork is needed for that. I was the leader for the raft, and im so thankful that my other followers cooperated with me and listened to all my instructions. So at night, we went to ipoh town to walk for a while. We went to a pasar malam, there was nothing much there, didnt buy anything back because the pasar malam there is just like singapore's one. Just that theirs is permanently there, unlike singapore one which will only be there for about a few weeks.
Day 4, we had our last activity which is to appreciate our teammaters. We were given pebbles, but we called them gems. So we were suppose to give these gems to people whom we felt have helped us. So first person we are suppose to give to is our buddy. It was quite awkward actually because we were suppose to say things like: "You are a gem in my heart, I gave you this gem because...". It just feels very awkward when we had to say it face to face yeah. Then after giving it to our buddy, we can give it to anyone else. But i really appreciated those who gave me the gems, and those whom i've given the gems to. And others who have helped me, but because of time constraint i didn't give it to. Yeap then after that, home sweet home, another 10 hours of train ride. Reached singapore at about 9.30pm at night, luckily there's my to send me back home. Imagaine im so tired and have to take train all the way home. Wanted to cab but im so broke recently and didnt want to waste money. His mum went to bukit panjang to drop gary off first, it was so near his house but he still decided to drove the rest of us to redhill. Yes my drove omg he is so smart, i dont even know how others can drive. I cant even remember the roads in singapore :X And he drove so well. Okay so thankyou my.
Alright so four days there, i've learnt a lot really. Through all the activities, the facilitators and trainers actually taught us different concepts. Some of the concepts also include the 7 habits which i've learned before in ctss. But this is so much more different. They made it so much more interesting and understandable by using the activities, and allowing us to see the concepts in a clearer manner when we do the activities. I'm more aware of myself, know what kind of leader i am, and i hope for all those things that i've learnt, i can apply it to my life and try to help my club in whatever way i can. I've made so many new awesome friends, they have helped me so much this few days. Especially those in my group, whereby we did the activities together. And also my buddy, who have help and encourage me alot. Throughout the few days, we often have to take a walk with our buddy and have a talk. I thought it was awkward, but still, it is through all the talks that i've learnt how to appreciate others. So i hope the friendship with this bunch of friends would last because i definitely think that leap camp is the best camp i've went to so far. I've brought back many nice memories with me, definitely it will stay with me for long. I've also got a lot of mosquito bites, cuts, bruises and also sunburn from the camp. I think the cuts and bruises were from the kayaking. And now my face is so red, peeling so badly, my hands too :(
But still, its worth it alright. So time for pictures now!
Around the campsite...
At ipoh town, the food..
On the train, we were all so bored. So we spam photos!
My group
My precious gems given by others.
Certificate :D
Yup thats about all, the fun have ended, im gonna start work next week and i'll take the time left to enjoy my holiday before it ends.
Bye people! Have a good week ahead! :D
September 20, 2011
Bye people! :DD
Hi, just some updates for this week.
Alright, last friday day i went out with wx to town and we just walked around a little. She brought me to marche for lunch, first time there. Always wanted to try but didnt had the chance to. It was quite nice, i've also heard good reviews about it.
Okay, then yesterday, met with yansan and we went to party world. First time i go to party world coz normally i choose to go kbox. It was pretty okay, has been such a long time since i went to sing. After that, we spam alot alot of pictures!
Yup there's alot more pics and im waiting for her to upload!
Alright, another thing is, my results for this sem are out. Disappointment, definitely there will be a little, i cant totally say im happy with it. Just that, i've learnt to accept it since i've really tried my best this time round. I really struggled through the semester, and i was so tired with everything, i really did tried my best. I expected this gpa, so actually im feeling kinda alright. Some modules which i thought i would do better, but i didnt, some which i thought i wont really do well, but i did. So perhaps, its still balance out afterall. At least this isnt my worst results, my worst gpa was the first sem of my first year, which supposedly should the most easy semester? But my gpa was kinda pulled down a little as compared to last semester. And i also found out that my classmates did quite well, no, in fact very well as compared to my results. But, i've decided not to expect so much. I mean we cant really compare with others sometimes, although thats what humans always do. But we have to look at our situation too, perhaps others are much more hardworking, much more clever, have more time? I dont know... but since i've tried my best, so i'll just accept it. Anyway, its not that bad afterall. 人比人，气死人。So, i will just 看开一点 :D
Okay, and anyway, tml im going to malaysia, ipoh, for leap camp. Its a leadership camp, and i guess it will be quite different from previous camps that i went. Quite looking forward to it, the activities seemed fun. Just that i've to wake up damn early tml, and we are taking train omg. A 10 hours train ride, *faint*. But i hope to learn something out of it. I'll update more when i come back from it. Will be away for 4 days, so dont miss me too much! :D
Alright thats all, enjoy your week people! :)
Alright, last friday day i went out with wx to town and we just walked around a little. She brought me to marche for lunch, first time there. Always wanted to try but didnt had the chance to. It was quite nice, i've also heard good reviews about it.
Okay, then yesterday, met with yansan and we went to party world. First time i go to party world coz normally i choose to go kbox. It was pretty okay, has been such a long time since i went to sing. After that, we spam alot alot of pictures!
Alright, another thing is, my results for this sem are out. Disappointment, definitely there will be a little, i cant totally say im happy with it. Just that, i've learnt to accept it since i've really tried my best this time round. I really struggled through the semester, and i was so tired with everything, i really did tried my best. I expected this gpa, so actually im feeling kinda alright. Some modules which i thought i would do better, but i didnt, some which i thought i wont really do well, but i did. So perhaps, its still balance out afterall. At least this isnt my worst results, my worst gpa was the first sem of my first year, which supposedly should the most easy semester? But my gpa was kinda pulled down a little as compared to last semester. And i also found out that my classmates did quite well, no, in fact very well as compared to my results. But, i've decided not to expect so much. I mean we cant really compare with others sometimes, although thats what humans always do. But we have to look at our situation too, perhaps others are much more hardworking, much more clever, have more time? I dont know... but since i've tried my best, so i'll just accept it. Anyway, its not that bad afterall. 人比人，气死人。So, i will just 看开一点 :D
Okay, and anyway, tml im going to malaysia, ipoh, for leap camp. Its a leadership camp, and i guess it will be quite different from previous camps that i went. Quite looking forward to it, the activities seemed fun. Just that i've to wake up damn early tml, and we are taking train omg. A 10 hours train ride, *faint*. But i hope to learn something out of it. I'll update more when i come back from it. Will be away for 4 days, so dont miss me too much! :D
Alright thats all, enjoy your week people! :)
September 16, 2011
I'm sorry.
Sorry is nothing but just a five letter word. You know, sorry wont mean anything if you dont intend to change or do anything about it.
Whats the point of saying sorry if you know you will do the same thing again? Because that will meant "i'm sorry but i will hurt you again".
Sometimes you might not know, some of your small little actions may hurt others a lot.
I rather not to receive any apology. If you are saying just for the sake of saying, then save it. Only say it if you really mean it.
If you said sorry, the other person didnt say they forgive you, you know they didnt really accept your apology.
I didnt, i didnt said i forgive you. Not because i'm angry or anything, i'm fine with it, but its just that i kinda know the sorry wont change anything, its meaningless.
In fact, i dont think you should be the one saying sorry.
I should be the one. I'm sorry, so sorry for expecting so much. So sorry for being so paranoid. So sorry for being such a nuisance. So sorry for trying to care. So sorry for anything or everything you think i've done wrong. Yes, i should be the one apologizing.
And since i said sorry, i mean it. I'll correct myself, what i've done wrong, and make sure i dont do it again.
Whats the point of saying sorry if you know you will do the same thing again? Because that will meant "i'm sorry but i will hurt you again".
Sometimes you might not know, some of your small little actions may hurt others a lot.
I rather not to receive any apology. If you are saying just for the sake of saying, then save it. Only say it if you really mean it.
If you said sorry, the other person didnt say they forgive you, you know they didnt really accept your apology.
I didnt, i didnt said i forgive you. Not because i'm angry or anything, i'm fine with it, but its just that i kinda know the sorry wont change anything, its meaningless.
In fact, i dont think you should be the one saying sorry.
I should be the one. I'm sorry, so sorry for expecting so much. So sorry for being so paranoid. So sorry for being such a nuisance. So sorry for trying to care. So sorry for anything or everything you think i've done wrong. Yes, i should be the one apologizing.
And since i said sorry, i mean it. I'll correct myself, what i've done wrong, and make sure i dont do it again.
Care
Don't take others for granted, don't think that it is just right for them to care for you.
When you know others care, shouldnt you do the same?
Everyone gets tired, nobody will always be there for someone, always giving in.
If you aren't gonna appreciate when others care for you, one day they will just leave you alone.
If that's what you want, fine, i've got nothing else to say.
When you know others care, shouldnt you do the same?
Everyone gets tired, nobody will always be there for someone, always giving in.
If you aren't gonna appreciate when others care for you, one day they will just leave you alone.
If that's what you want, fine, i've got nothing else to say.
September 11, 2011
Keep going,
Hi, this few days was rather alright. I've cleared some of my thoughts i guess. Had gusto first agm yesterday and a rather failed outing?
Supposed to head to marina barrage for a picnic but the weather wasnt good that day, so we change our plan to vivo instead.
There wasnt much things to do there, so... it was rather boring.
At vivo it was such a coincidence, was just walking around with them when i saw him. Didnt call out coz its kind of awkward since we were walking in different direction and were both with our own friends.
After vivo headed to hougang with fecilia to surprise frankie for his birthday.
I think im so nice yesterday, i went all the way to hougang and took train all the way back to redhill myself, just for a mini surprise. Nice right?
Well, but its good to know that he loves the present we got for him, great to have celebrated with him.
I was rather happy for the previous few days, thought things was changing for the better for me. But i guess happiness might not always be around for long. I should be prepared that things will change sooner or later.
Like i've said earlier on, i've cleared some thoughts in my mind. I guess i've already made up my mind, some things wont affect me anymore. I just wanted and needed to finish up what im suppose to do. I know this time, i really did made up my mind, coz its really different from how i felt previusly. Im so sorry to those who cared, but for now, i'll do what im suppose to. And maybe some time later, i'll decide what to do.
Thats it for now, i'll update again another time! :D
Supposed to head to marina barrage for a picnic but the weather wasnt good that day, so we change our plan to vivo instead.
There wasnt much things to do there, so... it was rather boring.
At vivo it was such a coincidence, was just walking around with them when i saw him. Didnt call out coz its kind of awkward since we were walking in different direction and were both with our own friends.
After vivo headed to hougang with fecilia to surprise frankie for his birthday.
I think im so nice yesterday, i went all the way to hougang and took train all the way back to redhill myself, just for a mini surprise. Nice right?
Well, but its good to know that he loves the present we got for him, great to have celebrated with him.
I was rather happy for the previous few days, thought things was changing for the better for me. But i guess happiness might not always be around for long. I should be prepared that things will change sooner or later.
Like i've said earlier on, i've cleared some thoughts in my mind. I guess i've already made up my mind, some things wont affect me anymore. I just wanted and needed to finish up what im suppose to do. I know this time, i really did made up my mind, coz its really different from how i felt previusly. Im so sorry to those who cared, but for now, i'll do what im suppose to. And maybe some time later, i'll decide what to do.
Thats it for now, i'll update again another time! :D
September 5, 2011
Mid autumn at ctss! :D
Sorry this post came a bit late, was suppose to be on wed when we went back to ctss.
Anw, so here it is. That day me and wx were just talking about whether we want to go back to ctss for teachers day, which was initally what we planned. But because teachers day celebration was changed to 2sep, and we had work, we cant go back. And luckily, sh found out that 31st aug was ctss mid autumn celebration, so we went there. Met up with sh and wh earlier, quite nice talking to them since i havent met them for so long. And then we went in to ctss. And on our way there, we were waiting at the traffic light and i look into a bus that stops infront of us, saw a really familiar face in the bus. For that moment i keep staring at him and in the end he said hi, and i hi back, so i think the guy is yusheng if im not wrong. Lol till now i still dont know if it is him, but i guess so. Alright and the celebration was boring as usual, but its the memories there that makes it special. This year they didnt have the celebration at the parade square, it was in the school hall. Saw quite a lot of familiar faces there, and walking back into this school which i've not visited for quite long really brings back many nice memories.
Their 猜灯谜, as usual, every year they will have it.
Taken with alicia :D
And sam
With wx at the study corner, used to be my favourite hangout place that time.
And this was taken in our favourite toilet i think.
And the study corner again, if im not wrong, this is the table we always sat. Everyday during recess, we will go to the study corner, our initial plan was to mug together, but me, wx and wj would always end up gossiping. Always, and our study plan always fail. Yes, my favourite place, really.
Alright i only took pics with a few of them though there's quite a lot of ppl i saw. And some pics were from wx btw.
You know, i really missed ctss so much when i was walking around that day. I remember when i was still in secondary school, i dread going to sch everyday coz i had to wake up so early, go for the boring lessons and then extra makeup classes and everything. I really wished i could graduate fast and go on to either jc or poly, which i thought would be more fun for me. But now that im in poly, i wished that i could go back to secondary school days... Life back then was considered less stressful, though i thought it is really stressful during o level period. But comparing now and then, ctss is a much better place for me.
Alright thats it for mid autumn, and then after wed, from thu until sun, i went to work at the it fair. Basically my job was rather simple, there's nth much for me to do. Im just doing redemption for banks. And sometimes it gets a little boring coz there's really not much work you see. But well, i enjoy the 4 days there, coz i've got nice colleagues, nice supervisors. I've worked with them for natas fair too. They were all so nice to us, and yeah, kind of miss them since i doubt i will be seeing them often :(
Hope there are other of such jobs when we still have chance to work with them.
Yup thats all for this week, i wish to make more plans for the upcoming weeks to make full use of my holiday :DD
Bye, i'll be back for update some day!
Anw, so here it is. That day me and wx were just talking about whether we want to go back to ctss for teachers day, which was initally what we planned. But because teachers day celebration was changed to 2sep, and we had work, we cant go back. And luckily, sh found out that 31st aug was ctss mid autumn celebration, so we went there. Met up with sh and wh earlier, quite nice talking to them since i havent met them for so long. And then we went in to ctss. And on our way there, we were waiting at the traffic light and i look into a bus that stops infront of us, saw a really familiar face in the bus. For that moment i keep staring at him and in the end he said hi, and i hi back, so i think the guy is yusheng if im not wrong. Lol till now i still dont know if it is him, but i guess so. Alright and the celebration was boring as usual, but its the memories there that makes it special. This year they didnt have the celebration at the parade square, it was in the school hall. Saw quite a lot of familiar faces there, and walking back into this school which i've not visited for quite long really brings back many nice memories.
Alright i only took pics with a few of them though there's quite a lot of ppl i saw. And some pics were from wx btw.
You know, i really missed ctss so much when i was walking around that day. I remember when i was still in secondary school, i dread going to sch everyday coz i had to wake up so early, go for the boring lessons and then extra makeup classes and everything. I really wished i could graduate fast and go on to either jc or poly, which i thought would be more fun for me. But now that im in poly, i wished that i could go back to secondary school days... Life back then was considered less stressful, though i thought it is really stressful during o level period. But comparing now and then, ctss is a much better place for me.
Alright thats it for mid autumn, and then after wed, from thu until sun, i went to work at the it fair. Basically my job was rather simple, there's nth much for me to do. Im just doing redemption for banks. And sometimes it gets a little boring coz there's really not much work you see. But well, i enjoy the 4 days there, coz i've got nice colleagues, nice supervisors. I've worked with them for natas fair too. They were all so nice to us, and yeah, kind of miss them since i doubt i will be seeing them often :(
Hope there are other of such jobs when we still have chance to work with them.
Yup thats all for this week, i wish to make more plans for the upcoming weeks to make full use of my holiday :DD
Bye, i'll be back for update some day!
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