Not even a chance

I'm so disappointed, so freaking hell disappointed.
I just wanted a chance, even though i know i may not succeed, but just a chance for me is enough.
But i don't even get that chance, why?
Why must it always be like that. It always have to turn out like that.
I realize since i was young, i've never got anything which i really wanted, never got what i really work hard for.
Why?
I was really sad and disappointed. Others can tell me "its alright", "nevermind", "try again", "don't be sad", yes everything, i can tell myself that too. But they just didn't know how important it is to me.
I wanted to be a happy girl, not an emo girl.
But why? why? why? Everytime i decided to smile, to get over an unhappy issue, to be more optimistic, something so disappointing and unhappy must happen?
Why? It's not as if im much lousier, its not as if i don't even have the standard, but i didn't even get the chance.
Just a fucking chance, no i didn't get it.
I cried, because this wasn't the only time. It happen to me everytime.
Unfair, this is really unfair.
But why? Why is it always me?
I've tried telling myself, someday your life's gonna be better, your luck's gonna change, but when?
If you're me, being in the same situation as me, you can't smile, trust me.
Yeah, blame it on my rotten luck.
I've just got to accept it, what else can i do?