When you meet with setbacks, you always told yourself to get up and pushes yourself forward.
When you meet with disappointment, you tried to turn it into motivation.
Yes, its easier said than done, things aint suppose to be that easy.
You want to be optimistic, you want to be confident, how can you ever do that if all that you see are failures?
Its just so disappointing, when you have hopes with you, set targets which you thought you will achieve just by working hard, but no, it doesnt turns out the way you thought.
Its so disappointing, when you couldnt even do a simple little thing just to meet up to your own expectation.
I just hate myself for this, why am i so competitive?
I wished i can let go a little, dont take things too hard, but i cant.
Coz i want to prove to myself, prove to others, to everyone.
I just dont know why it is always like that.
Im really wondering, have i made a wrong decision?
Maybe, some people, can actually turn disappointment to motivation, turn failure to success. Coz life is fair to them.
Yeah, but life isnt fair to everyone. In fact, its much more unfair than you can expect.
I just realized, from the past, till now, nothing ever changes.
Whatever i've seen now, is everything which i've seen in the past.
Being strong isnt just about saying "nevermind", "it's alright".
Being strong is just about not shedding a tear, for things which arent worth you crying about.
No, not easy, there arent many strong people around. Even though you tried hard to tell yourself it doesnt matter, dont be sad about such things, but you still will be.
I guess its time to face reality, that sometimes, you just got to fight for every single thing, because you aint as lucky as others.
Well right, even if thats the case, i still wish, that life can be a little more fair, just a little....
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