Just being happy (:

Hello people.
Im really happy now.
Training's over.
You see, im always affected by training.
Well, why?
Coz today i can do the shoulder stand!!!
Hahaha. Well, maybe others would think its nothing much.
BUT FOR ME, ITS REALLY SOMETHING I SHOULD BE VERY PROUD OF.
You see, i can overcome my freaking idiot stupid ass height phobia and do one proper one.
Well, okay sry, maybe i didnt do a good and proper one, but at least i stood up.
Imagine me who didnt do elevator at all, but i stood up for shoulder stand!
Maybe to other flyers they might feel that shoulder stand is just a simple stunt, but for me its totally different.
Even though it may be simple or basic, there's still a height to it.
My legs were totally shaking and i was freaking scared before doing.
Yeah but thanks to the encouragement of the seniors and other cca-mates, i did one.
My first one was freaking embarrassing coz i dont even dare to come down, i need someone to carry me down.
Yupp, and when i went down, i almost cried.
Coz i was really so scared, my legs were shaking like mad.
Yupp, and i look so worried so nervous.
But actually im really happy.
Coz i told myself i finally tried.
But i guess practice really makes perfect.
Well, maybe not perfect, but at least it boosts up ur confidence isnt it?
Yupp, so i was seriously so happy.
Coz at first i injured my wrist, and i was so sad coz i wasnt allowed to do stunts.
Yeap. and when i went over to the first group for shoulder stand, i said i injured my wrist, and i was told not to do it first.
But when i went to the second grp, i felt that i should at least try, coz my wrist doesnt hurt that much anymore.
And luckily i did.
Its just about the first try, if you are willing to try once, you will be able to do it the nxt time.
Yeah, i have to force myself for that.
To overcome my phobia, i really need to do that.
Well, if only that time when i was doing elevator i had really force myself to try.
In fact shoulder stand is something like elevator, i mean the kind of feeling is more or less the same, perhaps not as scary.
And since i can do shoulder stand, i should be able to do elevator if i had tried the previous time....
Well, anw it doesnt matter. I just need to tell myself, try try and try.
Okay, and after training we also stayed back a while longer to try other stunts.
And i tried too!
Even though at first i keep saying i cannot.
But in the end i still stood up.
Maybe i should say i can. really its all about having some confidence with yourself and others.
Alright, so just a note for everyone.
For everything you do, try and have confidence with yourself.
Practice really makes you much better.




I promise to stop thinking about it anymore.