Well, if u realized, i've changed my msn status from so super happy (((((((((((((: TO SO SUPER SAD ))))))))))))):
Seriously, WTF IS WRONG WITH MY ELEVATOR?!
OR MAYBE I SHOULD BE SAYING WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!
Having a phobia really sucks.
I dont know how people can overcome their phobia.
But for me, it is just like impossible.
I really told myself to try, just for once, but i couldnt.
You know i just wish that i can do one, just one proper elevator.
Or maybe i dont even have to do a proper one for now, i just need myself to try.
And when i tried once, i tink i will be able to try for the second time.
Even if i fall, i dont mind.
I wont injure myself.
Thats wad i kept telling myself.
But i juz cant do it.
It is like the most basic stunt.
But yet, i couldnt.
No matter how i tell myself, i just couldnt convince myself to do it.
You see, my mood will always be affected by gusto training.
Not always negatively.
Sometimes i will be so super happy and high after training.
But sometimes i will be so down.
Haizz. if only you are by my side.
Perhaps i wont feel so helpless.
But its if only.
Which means it wont happen.
Yeah, i should learn to overcome my stupid shit phobia.
Just get away from me luhh. I dont even understand why the hell u want to stick with me.
AAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
NG LI JUAN U SHOULD TRY!
REALLY TRY TRY TRY!
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