With you around, I felt much more safe and secure.
I dare to do it.
Thanks anyway.
Every word and action counts.
Oh yah, and ps, i love short hugs!♥ (:
June 30, 2010
June 24, 2010
Its enough (:
Seriously, you wont know it.
That small little act from you, or maybe i shld say that few words from you is just enough to lighten up my day.
Imagine how moody i was, and just what you said to me can bring smiles back.
If only i can hear that from you everyday.
And i will be so happy everyday.
I should be contented, erm. maybe once a week is enough (((:
HAHAHA.
That small little act from you, or maybe i shld say that few words from you is just enough to lighten up my day.
Imagine how moody i was, and just what you said to me can bring smiles back.
If only i can hear that from you everyday.
And i will be so happy everyday.
I should be contented, erm. maybe once a week is enough (((:
HAHAHA.
June 22, 2010
SO SUPER SAD! )))))))))))))):
Well, if u realized, i've changed my msn status from so super happy (((((((((((((: TO SO SUPER SAD ))))))))))))):
Seriously, WTF IS WRONG WITH MY ELEVATOR?!
OR MAYBE I SHOULD BE SAYING WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!
Having a phobia really sucks.
I dont know how people can overcome their phobia.
But for me, it is just like impossible.
I really told myself to try, just for once, but i couldnt.
You know i just wish that i can do one, just one proper elevator.
Or maybe i dont even have to do a proper one for now, i just need myself to try.
And when i tried once, i tink i will be able to try for the second time.
Even if i fall, i dont mind.
I wont injure myself.
Thats wad i kept telling myself.
But i juz cant do it.
It is like the most basic stunt.
But yet, i couldnt.
No matter how i tell myself, i just couldnt convince myself to do it.
You see, my mood will always be affected by gusto training.
Not always negatively.
Sometimes i will be so super happy and high after training.
But sometimes i will be so down.
Haizz. if only you are by my side.
Perhaps i wont feel so helpless.
But its if only.
Which means it wont happen.
Yeah, i should learn to overcome my stupid shit phobia.
Just get away from me luhh. I dont even understand why the hell u want to stick with me.
AAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
NG LI JUAN U SHOULD TRY!
REALLY TRY TRY TRY!
Seriously, WTF IS WRONG WITH MY ELEVATOR?!
OR MAYBE I SHOULD BE SAYING WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!
Having a phobia really sucks.
I dont know how people can overcome their phobia.
But for me, it is just like impossible.
I really told myself to try, just for once, but i couldnt.
You know i just wish that i can do one, just one proper elevator.
Or maybe i dont even have to do a proper one for now, i just need myself to try.
And when i tried once, i tink i will be able to try for the second time.
Even if i fall, i dont mind.
I wont injure myself.
Thats wad i kept telling myself.
But i juz cant do it.
It is like the most basic stunt.
But yet, i couldnt.
No matter how i tell myself, i just couldnt convince myself to do it.
You see, my mood will always be affected by gusto training.
Not always negatively.
Sometimes i will be so super happy and high after training.
But sometimes i will be so down.
Haizz. if only you are by my side.
Perhaps i wont feel so helpless.
But its if only.
Which means it wont happen.
Yeah, i should learn to overcome my stupid shit phobia.
Just get away from me luhh. I dont even understand why the hell u want to stick with me.
AAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
NG LI JUAN U SHOULD TRY!
REALLY TRY TRY TRY!
June 21, 2010
ONOW CIP (:
We had our onow cip yesterday.
So what we had to do is to help people paint their flat.
OH GOD. IT IS VERY SUPER TIRING!
The class met at queenstown mrt at 8.10.
Okay fine im late although redhill is just one stop away from queenstown.
Anw, we should just meet at commonwealth.
But Gerald says that it is nearer from queenstown.
Fine alright, but i used to be at the commonwealth campus for 2 years, taking train to commonwealth for 2 yrs, i think i know it better.
Okay, so we walk to the community centre, and we waited for about 1 more hr, so actually we should juz meet at 9.
Oh well, then there is all the briefing.
It seems quite easy actually, coz its a 1-room flat and we had abt 10 ppl painting it?
Yeah and i still rmb asking gerald what we will be doing if we finished painting earlier.
Oh no, thats out of question, we only managed to complete the painting just on time.
Okay, when we just reached there, we took some pictures.
Okay we were wearing our masks so i thought i was quite cute if we could take a picture with it.
Yupp, and anw it was a very tiring job.
Just painting the ceiling alone is so super tedious.
Imagine short ppl like me have to climb up the ladder, climb down, shift the ladder a little and climb up again.
And the paint just keep dripping down.
After a while, we found our feet so super dirty.
This is Li Juan at work (:
Okayy, then after we painted the ceiling, its lunch time!
I was like so super hungry so we rushed back to the cc for lunch.
It was nasi lemak i think...
Surprisingly, the food was pretty nice.
Alright, and after we finished our rice, they offered us london choco roll.
OMGOMG.
We took one at first.
But before leaving, we took a lot more.
We really look like kids who didnt get a chance to eat london choco roll before.
Oh well, i really love the strawberry london choco roll.
And i seriously didnt know they have a strawberry one, okay fine i know im such a noob.
but well, it is really awesome!
Okay, then after many many hours, we finally finished the painting.
But the owner was quite nice, she said we dont need to help her clear the newspapers on the floor.
So we left and headed back to the cc.
And then, we wasted like another hr waiting for a debrief.
Wth. Well, but obviously we wouldnt just sit down there and do nothing.
Me and fecilia were taking pictures like crazy.
Well, i dont always bring my digital cam out, coz i always forgot to.
And i tht since i did, i should just use finish the batt and take as many as i could.
Haha.
We really love london choco roll!
Okay i wont be uploading so many pics since all of them are on fb.
Alright and after the community service, went tiong with fecilia to get her present.
Yupp, and that ends my tiring day.
Oh well, one week of the holiday had passed, this tells us that we are left with one last pathetic week.
I seriously feel that this holiday is not like a holiday at all.
Not because of the work load.
In fact, there isnt much work or assignments.
I've been going out shopping, playing.
But maybe this holiday is so different compared to our sec school one.
Well, when i was in sec school, i used to say: " OH MY GOD, MY HOLIDAY IS SO BORED. I'VE GOT NOTHING TO DO AT HOME! "
But now i'm telling myself: " OH MY GOD, CAN I BE AT HOME? "
You see, its like there isnt much time for me to rest.
I've been shopping like hell, attending camp, cca and blah blah shit.
I love shopping, when i have the money.
I've been spending so much.
Oh my, wth, how i wish money can fall from the sky.
Im still in need of sooooooooo many things.
I want to get myself a slipper because of the slipper that broke out of nowhere.
A bag because im lacking of bags.
More clothes if possible.
Well, holiday just doesnt feel like holiday.
Perhaps its because im in poly, going to school is like going out.
And since im going out, it feels as if im going to school.
Oh well, i want to feel like im having a school holiday.
I want a break.
And there's gusto training tml!
Im having muscle aches from the previous training.
Is it a good thing? Means my stretching is of some help?
Okay fine.
Oh anyway this is kinda random.
But i just randomly and suddenly miss ctss.
I miss those times when i have to wake up so damn early and take a train to clementi.
I miss those times when i have to walk damn fast coz i dont want to get detention.
I miss those times when i have to run across the road when im almost late.
I miss those times when tkk will tell us he wants to hear a loud and powerful morning greeting from us.
I miss those times when we always have a super sian face when we walk up to our classroom.
I miss those times when we keep complaining about our long day, having focus after school.
I miss those times when we dont have teachers for a particular lesson and we would sit around, having gossip sessions.
In all, i just miss ctss and my friends.
Sometimes i just wish that we could have a day, when everyone can get back to those days when we were in ctss.
I'll snap down that moment and keep it within myself.
I'll look at it when i miss those times.
Well, but from the previous class dinner we had, it seems like everyone is getting along fine in their school.
Im just thinking perhaps it will be more and more difficult for us to get together as a class?
Hahas not being emo though.
Nah, everyone has to get on with life.
Okaays, i tink im like off topic, i should be talking abt cip.
Well, okay.
I guess thats all.
BYE PEOPLE!
So what we had to do is to help people paint their flat.
OH GOD. IT IS VERY SUPER TIRING!
The class met at queenstown mrt at 8.10.
Okay fine im late although redhill is just one stop away from queenstown.
Anw, we should just meet at commonwealth.
But Gerald says that it is nearer from queenstown.
Fine alright, but i used to be at the commonwealth campus for 2 years, taking train to commonwealth for 2 yrs, i think i know it better.
Okay, so we walk to the community centre, and we waited for about 1 more hr, so actually we should juz meet at 9.
Oh well, then there is all the briefing.
It seems quite easy actually, coz its a 1-room flat and we had abt 10 ppl painting it?
Yeah and i still rmb asking gerald what we will be doing if we finished painting earlier.
Oh no, thats out of question, we only managed to complete the painting just on time.
Okay, when we just reached there, we took some pictures.
Okay we were wearing our masks so i thought i was quite cute if we could take a picture with it.
Yupp, and anw it was a very tiring job.
Just painting the ceiling alone is so super tedious.
Imagine short ppl like me have to climb up the ladder, climb down, shift the ladder a little and climb up again.
And the paint just keep dripping down.
After a while, we found our feet so super dirty.
This is Li Juan at work (:
Okayy, then after we painted the ceiling, its lunch time!
I was like so super hungry so we rushed back to the cc for lunch.
It was nasi lemak i think...
Surprisingly, the food was pretty nice.
Alright, and after we finished our rice, they offered us london choco roll.
OMGOMG.
We took one at first.
But before leaving, we took a lot more.
We really look like kids who didnt get a chance to eat london choco roll before.
Oh well, i really love the strawberry london choco roll.
And i seriously didnt know they have a strawberry one, okay fine i know im such a noob.
but well, it is really awesome!
Okay, then after many many hours, we finally finished the painting.
But the owner was quite nice, she said we dont need to help her clear the newspapers on the floor.
So we left and headed back to the cc.
And then, we wasted like another hr waiting for a debrief.
Wth. Well, but obviously we wouldnt just sit down there and do nothing.
Me and fecilia were taking pictures like crazy.
Well, i dont always bring my digital cam out, coz i always forgot to.
And i tht since i did, i should just use finish the batt and take as many as i could.
Haha.
We really love london choco roll!
Okay i wont be uploading so many pics since all of them are on fb.
Alright and after the community service, went tiong with fecilia to get her present.
Yupp, and that ends my tiring day.
Oh well, one week of the holiday had passed, this tells us that we are left with one last pathetic week.
I seriously feel that this holiday is not like a holiday at all.
Not because of the work load.
In fact, there isnt much work or assignments.
I've been going out shopping, playing.
But maybe this holiday is so different compared to our sec school one.
Well, when i was in sec school, i used to say: " OH MY GOD, MY HOLIDAY IS SO BORED. I'VE GOT NOTHING TO DO AT HOME! "
But now i'm telling myself: " OH MY GOD, CAN I BE AT HOME? "
You see, its like there isnt much time for me to rest.
I've been shopping like hell, attending camp, cca and blah blah shit.
I love shopping, when i have the money.
I've been spending so much.
Oh my, wth, how i wish money can fall from the sky.
Im still in need of sooooooooo many things.
I want to get myself a slipper because of the slipper that broke out of nowhere.
A bag because im lacking of bags.
More clothes if possible.
Well, holiday just doesnt feel like holiday.
Perhaps its because im in poly, going to school is like going out.
And since im going out, it feels as if im going to school.
Oh well, i want to feel like im having a school holiday.
I want a break.
And there's gusto training tml!
Im having muscle aches from the previous training.
Is it a good thing? Means my stretching is of some help?
Okay fine.
Oh anyway this is kinda random.
But i just randomly and suddenly miss ctss.
I miss those times when i have to wake up so damn early and take a train to clementi.
I miss those times when i have to walk damn fast coz i dont want to get detention.
I miss those times when i have to run across the road when im almost late.
I miss those times when tkk will tell us he wants to hear a loud and powerful morning greeting from us.
I miss those times when we always have a super sian face when we walk up to our classroom.
I miss those times when we keep complaining about our long day, having focus after school.
I miss those times when we dont have teachers for a particular lesson and we would sit around, having gossip sessions.
In all, i just miss ctss and my friends.
Sometimes i just wish that we could have a day, when everyone can get back to those days when we were in ctss.
I'll snap down that moment and keep it within myself.
I'll look at it when i miss those times.
Well, but from the previous class dinner we had, it seems like everyone is getting along fine in their school.
Im just thinking perhaps it will be more and more difficult for us to get together as a class?
Hahas not being emo though.
Nah, everyone has to get on with life.
Okaays, i tink im like off topic, i should be talking abt cip.
Well, okay.
I guess thats all.
BYE PEOPLE!
June 17, 2010
IM CRAZY. SUPER DUPER HIGH!
I know i shouldnt think too much.
Its just normal.
BUT
Im just happy for what you did.
Perhaps you wouldnt know something as small as this would let me be happy for dont know how long.
But really i am.
Still i should remind myself, dont tink too much about it.
Its just normal.
BUT
Im just happy for what you did.
Perhaps you wouldnt know something as small as this would let me be happy for dont know how long.
But really i am.
Still i should remind myself, dont tink too much about it.
June 15, 2010
DTRM CAMP OVER!
DTRM camp is now over.
Well, i wouldnt say its very successful, but maybe to some extend, it is.
First day was quite all right coz mainly wad we did was to deisgn our flag, and went arnd for station games.
Most of the station games was quite fun.
Except that there are some stations where it is quite disgusting.
Halfway through the games, when we are moving from one station to another, guess wad?
My slipper broke!
I am like so super unlucky.
In the end my GL got one for me from cheers, errr i love purple, but apparently the design of the slipper is quite childish.
Well, but nvm.
At night, we got our performance.
Haha well done to 06.
I tink we all did a very good job, though we didnt get the best class performance.
Well, but our gayderella is super funny okay.
Oh yeah anw meals for first day was pretty alright.
For lunch its okay... but not super nice.
Dinner we had the buffet which was quite nice.
Everybody was so kiasu and we took a lot of food.
Then it is slpintg time.
Arhhh, first time for camp we get to slp at 10.
Most of us thinks it is early, so we didnt want to slp.
So.... we went to 7-eleven to get some drinks and snacks.
I bought pocky and milk tea back which was totally a shit choice.
We went back to play card games and i keep eating snacks and drinking my milk tea.
WTH. I totally forgot that im not suppose to drink any tea with an empty stomach.
And then, this morn while slping halfway i was feeling so terrible, woke up and vomited many many times.
Arhhh shit, i've been living with my body for 17 years, 6 months and 15 days
YET
i dont know what i can take or cannot take.
I juz dont know myself well enough.
Physically or emotionally.
Oh yeah then last night, we keep wanting to go to the toilet.
The whole corridor was so super dark coz all the lights along the corridor was off.
Me and cara wanted to go to the toilet but we were so scared.
So..... we decided to ask someone to accompany us.
We asked gerald along since he couldnt slp.
And in the end, he went into the girls toilet with us coz we were so scared.
Oh ya, and into the cubicle, i mean different cubicles.
Haha sorry gerald, i didnt want to embarrass you, but juz find it so super funny.
But thanks anw.
Yeah anw, when i woke up today i was feeling damn terrible.
At first wanted to leave and forget abt the amazing race coz i feel that i couldnt take it.
But i decided to stay, and i duno if it is a right choice.
Anw, i skipped breakfast which was mac breakfast coz i have no appetite at all.
Amazing race was so super tiring coz we were running and running like crazy.
I was lagging behind in my grp coz i couldnt run.
But i still decided to stay throughout.
then it was raining, and then, coz of that, im like having a fever now.
Thats why i said i didnt know if i made the right choice for going.
If im not sick, im super high and hyper, i'll definitely run and chiong with my grp.
But i totally have no energy juz now.
Anw, i didnt have breakfast or lunch.
Juz took a sip of milo, some biscuits and thats all.
I juz had dinner at 9 plus coz i slept all the way.
Anw, i dont know whether this camp is successful or not.
Maybe for some ppl it is, but i tink for me, it isnt.
It didnt really achieve the purpose of bonding with others.
I juz tink i noe their names and classes, prob thats all?
Well, but i know the seniors still put in lots of effort, so at least i enjoyed myself sometimes.
Oh yeah, and also coz i was sick, i couldnt make it for gusto training )))))))))))):
I was so super sad, not only coz i was sick, but im also tired.
I really wanted to go badly, but i couldnt.
I wont be able to endure through all the pt and stuff.
Nvm, i'll go on thu.
Anw, im so super tired now even after slping for abt 3 hrs, im gonna get back to slp soon.
Still going out tml.
Okay so maybe thats all for now.
Bye ppl.
Well, i wouldnt say its very successful, but maybe to some extend, it is.
First day was quite all right coz mainly wad we did was to deisgn our flag, and went arnd for station games.
Most of the station games was quite fun.
Except that there are some stations where it is quite disgusting.
Halfway through the games, when we are moving from one station to another, guess wad?
My slipper broke!
I am like so super unlucky.
In the end my GL got one for me from cheers, errr i love purple, but apparently the design of the slipper is quite childish.
Well, but nvm.
At night, we got our performance.
Haha well done to 06.
I tink we all did a very good job, though we didnt get the best class performance.
Well, but our gayderella is super funny okay.
Oh yeah anw meals for first day was pretty alright.
For lunch its okay... but not super nice.
Dinner we had the buffet which was quite nice.
Everybody was so kiasu and we took a lot of food.
Then it is slpintg time.
Arhhh, first time for camp we get to slp at 10.
Most of us thinks it is early, so we didnt want to slp.
So.... we went to 7-eleven to get some drinks and snacks.
I bought pocky and milk tea back which was totally a shit choice.
We went back to play card games and i keep eating snacks and drinking my milk tea.
WTH. I totally forgot that im not suppose to drink any tea with an empty stomach.
And then, this morn while slping halfway i was feeling so terrible, woke up and vomited many many times.
Arhhh shit, i've been living with my body for 17 years, 6 months and 15 days
YET
i dont know what i can take or cannot take.
I juz dont know myself well enough.
Physically or emotionally.
Oh yeah then last night, we keep wanting to go to the toilet.
The whole corridor was so super dark coz all the lights along the corridor was off.
Me and cara wanted to go to the toilet but we were so scared.
So..... we decided to ask someone to accompany us.
We asked gerald along since he couldnt slp.
And in the end, he went into the girls toilet with us coz we were so scared.
Oh ya, and into the cubicle, i mean different cubicles.
Haha sorry gerald, i didnt want to embarrass you, but juz find it so super funny.
But thanks anw.
Yeah anw, when i woke up today i was feeling damn terrible.
At first wanted to leave and forget abt the amazing race coz i feel that i couldnt take it.
But i decided to stay, and i duno if it is a right choice.
Anw, i skipped breakfast which was mac breakfast coz i have no appetite at all.
Amazing race was so super tiring coz we were running and running like crazy.
I was lagging behind in my grp coz i couldnt run.
But i still decided to stay throughout.
then it was raining, and then, coz of that, im like having a fever now.
Thats why i said i didnt know if i made the right choice for going.
If im not sick, im super high and hyper, i'll definitely run and chiong with my grp.
But i totally have no energy juz now.
Anw, i didnt have breakfast or lunch.
Juz took a sip of milo, some biscuits and thats all.
I juz had dinner at 9 plus coz i slept all the way.
Anw, i dont know whether this camp is successful or not.
Maybe for some ppl it is, but i tink for me, it isnt.
It didnt really achieve the purpose of bonding with others.
I juz tink i noe their names and classes, prob thats all?
Well, but i know the seniors still put in lots of effort, so at least i enjoyed myself sometimes.
Oh yeah, and also coz i was sick, i couldnt make it for gusto training )))))))))))):
I was so super sad, not only coz i was sick, but im also tired.
I really wanted to go badly, but i couldnt.
I wont be able to endure through all the pt and stuff.
Nvm, i'll go on thu.
Anw, im so super tired now even after slping for abt 3 hrs, im gonna get back to slp soon.
Still going out tml.
Okay so maybe thats all for now.
Bye ppl.
June 10, 2010
MST OVER!
MST is over and its holidays.
Went shopping right after school today.
2 tops and 1 shoe.
Arhhh, im spending a lot...
Well, but anw, its still not enough!
Im gonna shop more during the hols.
Alright, im gonna be so lonely at home tml :(
Oh no........ coz someone pangseh me...
Alright, tml shall be a stay-at-home day.
Hmm. alright juz do something tml.
Look through the ppt for our class performance.
Haha the gayderella is so funny!
I tink its gonna be a great skit.
Lol, and im looking forward to saturday.
Meeting my dearest 4d1 classmates (:
Okayy, happy holidays to all.
And jiayou for ppl who is having the last paper tml. hahaha
Went shopping right after school today.
2 tops and 1 shoe.
Arhhh, im spending a lot...
Well, but anw, its still not enough!
Im gonna shop more during the hols.
Alright, im gonna be so lonely at home tml :(
Oh no........ coz someone pangseh me...
Alright, tml shall be a stay-at-home day.
Hmm. alright juz do something tml.
Look through the ppt for our class performance.
Haha the gayderella is so funny!
I tink its gonna be a great skit.
Lol, and im looking forward to saturday.
Meeting my dearest 4d1 classmates (:
Okayy, happy holidays to all.
And jiayou for ppl who is having the last paper tml. hahaha
June 4, 2010
Its gonna be mugging week :)))
Hello today is a dont-feel-like-friday day.
Usually on fridays, im suppose to be damn high and crazy coz its gonna be weekends.
But my weekends for this wk is gonna be spend on mugging coz nxt wk is mst.
Hmmm... did a mob trial test today and i think i really suck at that module.
I alr memorized for all i can, and understood whatever which was there.
But juz couldnt get the application part right.
I seriously have to chiong more on that and look through all my tutorials if not i will flunk my mst for sure.
Well, mst is gonna be 4 days for me, then after the 4 days, ENJOY!
hahaha, im sooooooooooooooooo looking forward to holidays.
Hmmm.. 4d1 zhi char, DTRM camp, cca, video shooting for sh, kbox, shopping trips with my dearest friends and more...
Lots and lots of activites.
Hahaha.
Okay, but before all that, i have to study first.
Well, i promised, after my dinner im gonna go mug.
And for my weekends too.
Yeap oh yah, sorry i've just got something to mention about.
I was damn pissed off ytd.
I duno why some ppl can do things without considering others' feelings.
Well, maybe sometimes we might be doing all these and yet we dont know.
Maybe i did something like this before.
But seriously, its like wth.
Im gonna remind myself what i can say and what i cant say.
Sometimes u shouldnt tell someone too much things.
Freaking pissed off ytd.
Well but i have cool down after a day.
Just hope the same thing wont happen again.
Its time for dinner.
And mugging after dinner.
Will probably blog again after mst.
Dont miss me too much :)
Usually on fridays, im suppose to be damn high and crazy coz its gonna be weekends.
But my weekends for this wk is gonna be spend on mugging coz nxt wk is mst.
Hmmm... did a mob trial test today and i think i really suck at that module.
I alr memorized for all i can, and understood whatever which was there.
But juz couldnt get the application part right.
I seriously have to chiong more on that and look through all my tutorials if not i will flunk my mst for sure.
Well, mst is gonna be 4 days for me, then after the 4 days, ENJOY!
hahaha, im sooooooooooooooooo looking forward to holidays.
Hmmm.. 4d1 zhi char, DTRM camp, cca, video shooting for sh, kbox, shopping trips with my dearest friends and more...
Lots and lots of activites.
Hahaha.
Okay, but before all that, i have to study first.
Well, i promised, after my dinner im gonna go mug.
And for my weekends too.
Yeap oh yah, sorry i've just got something to mention about.
I was damn pissed off ytd.
I duno why some ppl can do things without considering others' feelings.
Well, maybe sometimes we might be doing all these and yet we dont know.
Maybe i did something like this before.
But seriously, its like wth.
Im gonna remind myself what i can say and what i cant say.
Sometimes u shouldnt tell someone too much things.
Freaking pissed off ytd.
Well but i have cool down after a day.
Just hope the same thing wont happen again.
Its time for dinner.
And mugging after dinner.
Will probably blog again after mst.
Dont miss me too much :)
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