I can't believe, i just can't believe how fast time flies. 6 months. Never have i expect myself to be in the states for 6 months. And then i got so used to everything and everyone here, it feels like home. I mean i still miss singapore, very very much. But knowing that i need to leave orlando, leave vista way, a place where i call it my home for the past 6 months, i just don't feel good.
I was with my japanese roommate that day. It was my last day in orlando. We went to the theme park together. We came on this program together, and we met in california. It's like we spent so much time together for the past 6 months, and it feels like i'm still gonna see her when i go back to my country, just like how i'm gonna see the other singaporeans when i'm back. Just because i am so used to seeing her everyday. But till that day then i realized, no, i might not see her ever again. I mean japan and singapore are not very far, we might probably have the chance to meet up, but who knows?
Which is why i was so sad, i cried that day just because i'm used to living with her, seeing her everyday. The thought that when i wake up and wouldnt see her again, just makes me feel so sad.
And this applies to everyone else and everything else here....
I mean after traveling for 2 weeks, i will actually go back to orlando for a few more days before i take my flight back to singapore. I would probably go visit my friends, hang out with them. But on my last day in orlando, i just can't imagine how i will feel. I don't really feel that sad about leaving orlando that day, because i know i will be coming back and seeing these people again. But what about my last day here? The day will eventually comes, and i just gotta face it.
You know i'm so used to waking up, preparing breakfast for myself, get changed, run to the busstop, hoping that the transtar bus will not come late, board the bus and meet familiar faces and head to hollywood studios, work in either my merchandising location or sunset, and when i'm in sunset i would always pray to get a better assignment, sometimes i will end up closing dishes, and then running to the bus stop again to catch a bus back to the apartment, hoping that the bus will come so i would not have to wait for half an hour, going back, have some supper, bath and sleep. And this goes on......
I pretty much like the life here. I lead an independent life. I work for myself, spend the money i earn. Its like while i was in orlando for the past 6 months, i had my singapore card with me but i didn't spend much with the card... Most of my daily expenses were from my weekly paycheck. The feeling of spending your own money feels so good. And being in orlando, i feel like i'm living my own life. You don't need to answer to anyone, tell people what you gonna do, listen to others or whatsoever. I do what i want, and i'll be responsible for my own actions. That kind of feeling, that's like the real freedom.
I'm just so used to the kind of life.....
And just being here in new york for a few days, i can tell you guys, orlando is a beautiful city. If i ever get to live in the states, i would want to live in orlando. Its like a tourist attraction, there's so many things to do. And.... the weather is pretty good too! Its clean!
New york is great too, its fun! But the subway stations are pretty much dirty, and its kinda crazy here. Its a great place for vacation, but personally, i wouldn't want to live here.
And here i am, thinking about the times i spent in orlando....
My last month there was the best times i ever had...
I felt blessed, very blessed.
I would definitely treasure my time here in the states, and definitely, my last few days in orlando.
But i miss singapore, i really do.
I'm in such a dilemma. And i know i'm contradicting myself. I want to go back to singapore, but i want to stay in orlando. Can i just travel between singapore and orlando? I don't mind taking the long hours of flight. I just need someone to sponsor the air ticket to and fro lol.
But really, being here for half a year, i realized singapore is really good, we are very blessed to be in this country. So stop complaining singaporeans.
People complain about smrt, when trains breakdown we complain. But do you know how the subway in new york looks like? It is very dirty, there is litter almost everywhere. It is still convenient, but definitely, not how clean our trains are. Sometimes the trains here don't run on particular days, and you either have to walk to the next station, or take another train to a few other stations and transfer to another train again. I'm pretty sure smrt won't do that to us.
And even in orlando, pubic transport is so inconvenient. Yeah you can say that's because most people own a car, but still, what about the minorities who do not have one? The buses are so limited and the routes they take are so limited too. You probably have to alight somewhere and walk a few streets down.
We are blessed, really. Cherish this.
But anyway, i'm just trying to say how lucky we are. The thing is...... i really miss the conveniency and safety in singapore. But, i really can't bear to leave this place too....
I need to prepare myself for my last day in orlando.
I need to hold back my tears, i know i will cry, i definitely will.
Anyway, here are just some pictures of my graduation in disney!!
A picture with jessica!!
Throwing our hats high up!
Proud to be a Singaporean!! Really, being overseas for a little while, that's when i realized how good our country is!
And that's all for this, gonna enjoy my last 2 weeks here!
Good bye people and see you guys real soon back in Singapore.
