Merry christmas!!

Hi guys! I know it has been a while since i last blogged.
Was busy with exams and everything and once my exams were over i went to work. Trying to save up some money just in case i want to go for exchange in year 2, hmm or even if i dont, at least i can go for a holiday!
So just some updates, work is fine. Am working at gucci now, part time. My colleagues there are nice, just that sometimes it gets a little stressful especially during festive seasons when there are so many customers. Well you know everytime i work, i don't really want to go back to school. I know people always say schooling is better than working. After you graduate and go to work, you probably will miss schooling. But, i dont know, i just don't really like school life. Competition, and more competition. Being a student, just makes me feel so restricted in everything. I dont know, it just makes me feel like im a kid, can't make my own decision and stuff. But being at work, i feel that im treated more like an adult, with respect and everything. I can see more of my capabilities rather than measuring my capabilities according to my school results. Nah whatever, okay that's just what i feel. Not to worry, i'm not thinking of quitting school. I've been feeling this way since long time ago.


Okay so after my exams, i went to prive for brunch. Its a very nice cafe/restaurant located at keppel island. They have both brunch and lunch menu. But yeah, we opted for brunch menu since you probably can get lunch menu almost everywhere.

This was what i ordered. I forgot it is called, ultimate brekkie if i'm not wrong. Omg the serving is huge. REALLY HUGE. But i just wanted to try a little of everything, that's why i ordered this. Lol i ended up giving half the portion of everything to either my mum or my bro.

And their mocha, which was so-so.

Oh what i really love about this place is that it is at keppel island. So beautiful, there's all the yacht there and its a really nice place to just hang out with your family/ friends.

Not forgetting to take some pics before leaving.

Oh yeah and since christmas is around the corner, here's just some pics from last year to share.
Not much plans for this year, probably just gonna have a simple celebration with family. Dont really want to hang out at orcahrd or town area since its gonna be hell crowded. Yeah its singapore. Yesterday was xmas eve and after i ended work, it was so damn crowded. LOL i cant imagine how its gonna be like today. But yeah, i really do miss my xmas last year in disney. So yeah just posting some pics from last year. Memories.


So this is the osborne lights at disney hollywood studios. I'll probably never forget the time when i had to drive the ECV from oscar up to streets of america. And yeah, when i passed by streets of america, the osborne lights was there and it was down the whole stretch of the street. So beautiful. And i was on the ECV enjoying the view.

And this was taken at last year's mickey very merry christmas party. The castle changes colour and i really think this colour is the nicest.

Oh yeah, and the first time i had a christmas tree in my apartment. My family never got a christmas tree in our apartment before for a simple reason, its a waste of money. Oh yeah another reason, my apartment is too small. And last year we decided to head down to walmart and buy a christmas tree. It was in a few different parts and we "build" it ourselves.

And this was the christmas tree in animal kingdom. LOL christmas tree everywhere. But this is a very special one! There were many aninmal figurines on it.

Not forgetting mickey and minnie at the christmas party!

Oh yeah and also this christmas tree on board disney wonder. It was around january when we went for disney cruise but yeah their christmas tree was still there.

Sigh how much i miss disney and america. Wonder when i'll ever have the chance to be back there again. I will, i definitely will go back, but.... when exactly?
Okay anyway, its christmas so merry christmas to everyone. May all of you enjoy this festive season and have a very merry christmas with your friends and family.

Almost the end of september..

HARRROOOOO!!
I'm here to update this space a little bit because i realized it has been quite some time since i last posted.
Okay its nearing the end of september, and we're gonna welcome october soon!! My favourite month, hehe because its my birthday month!!! *HINT HINT*
Haha but anyway how's life for everyone? Me? Hmm I'm pretty occupied with schoolwork and everything. School's fine i'm coping well, at least not as stressed as poly. Well but maybe because this is the first year. And time flies, 6 weeks of school passed, just one more week will come recess week.
School's a 4-days week for me since i dont have lessons on friday (Well but sometimes i still have to go to school for projects).
Life's good so far. Hanging out with my og peeps most of the time. But sometimes also with my tutorial mates. My project group mates for different modules are all rather responsible (and i definitely hope it stays that way), so right now there's no problem of free-riding. Well, i guess everyone knows i hate that! And if i know of anyone who's gonna do that again, i'm not gonna let that person off so easily like how i did in poly. Definitely not gonna take all the responsibilities again and stress myself up.
Well anyway continuing about school, hmm joined a club, wsc, which stands for welfare services club. Why suddenly go into welfare you may ask? Hmm have been joining rather active ccas all the while, as in high participation level and also physically active in a way. I just think that uni's workload is gonna be heavy, i don't want more stress from a cca. And i'm kinda sick of competition, its already enough competition in the area of academics, there's no need to seek more competition in ccas. So yup, shall dedicate my time to the community. HAHAHA i'm not that noble, but just think that yeah, its something meaningful, i do it once a week, so why not?
Yeah that pretty much sums up my school life so far. Trying to get more occupied with schoolwork so i can rely lesser on him.
Has been almost half a year since i got back to singapore, we still talk, but, not like how we used to.
And i know for sure, things will change, people will change. Just that, i'm still emotionally relying on him and everytime i'm unhappy, the first person i ever want to talk to will be him. But yeah, it has been 6 months. It doesn't do me any good to be clinging on so tightly to someone who's in my past, and will probably never be part of my future. Probably, hopefully, when school gets real busy, i wouldn't even have the time to think about all these.
Well not trying to be emo here, just.... pouring out my thoughts.

Alright i still have morning classes tomorrow, gotta go to bed soon.
Have a good week everyone! :)

Counting down...

Hi all!!
It has been awhile since i last blogged.
So.... It is almost the end of july now and august is gonna come in a few days' time.
This means the start of uni, a new chapter of my life.
Oh! And did i mention that i went for nbs camp? It was so awesome really!
Well but seriously, it was superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr tiring coz i only had approximately 6 hours of sleep in total for 5 days!! I felt zombified by the end of second day seriously. And when it reaches the 3rd day i couldnt even feel what i was doing. Hmm it seems like i was just following what everyone's doing. Well but i still had fun. I clearly remembered everything i did. And its like time just zooooooommm passed and there came day 5 which was the last day of camp. Well but at least we are still meeting up as a group for outings.
I really cherished this friendship coz these people are the first group of friends i've made in my uni!!
And the camp was really fun and awesome because of every single one of them!
Well but anyway, i just hope we still continue to meet up for outings and keep in touch with one another!

Another thing, its probably gonna be my last two days at work. Well, actually i really love my job and the people at my workplace are really nice. I want to earn more money and i really don't mind continue working. But i just dont want to tire myself out since idk how uni life is gonna be like. And anyway, uni is like my last stage as a student, i'm not in need of money why should i make my life so difficult right lol? So i kinda decided not to continue working.

Well anyway school's gonna start officially in about two weeks time. I havent been to school for about a year since i was on half a year internship. And i have been working all this time. So going back to school feels kinda weird but exciting at the same time. I just think that probably for the guys its even weirder since they have been in ns life and did all the tough work but now they gotta adapt back to a student life. Still, its another 3 years for me. I'm not staying in hall, i know i would be missing out a lot so i'm most probably gonna join a club. Definitely not one that needs a lot of commitment like gusto coz i really can't afford to get so stressed up again. But well, i'll go for one that really interest me. Some may ask, why don't i want to stay in hall.
Well actually a part of me wants, and a part of me don't. And probably a part of me doesn't have a choice.
The reason why i want is because i can save down the time for transporation, it takes probably 1.5 - 2 hours to travel to and fro from ntu. Another reason why i want is because i'm probably gonna have a lot of fun, and NO CURFEWS!!!! I can lead an independent and a "free" life like how i used to have in the states lol.
But, a part of me doesn't want to because i am highly certain that staying in hall will affect my results. And the first year is the most important year because if i get a low gpa, it is very very very difficult to get it up even if i do well for my second or third year. Secondly, i have to join all the clubs and participate in all the hall activities to fight for another spot in year 2. What if i can't get a spot? All the hall friends i've made in year 1?!! Well, probably will distant from them?
And lastly, the other part of me don't really have a choice. I guess if i'm gonna tell my mum that i wanna stay in hall, she's probably not gonna be pleased. I just got back to singapore in april, i've been away from home for 7 months. And now i'm gonna be away from home again for a year? Well i don't think she's gonna be pleased with that. The fact that she has already been very nice to let me go for an oitp, so i don't think i can ask for more. Well, but at least i count myself lucky for being able to feel what "real freedom" is like.
So, considering everything, nope i'm not in hall.
But oh well, someday i'll crash someone's hall. Maybe this is what all the hall 17 people should do!
(p.s. hall 17 means no hall lol)

Well thats probably about it, i'm getting sleepy time for my beeeedddd!
On a side note, i dont know why, i sleep like 11 or 12 hours almost everyday and i still feel tired!
I guess i'm still replenishing the hours that i lacked from camp.
Oh okay, i shall just sleep as much as i can. I probably wouldn't be able to wake up at 10am when school starts.
Alright, goodnight people!

3 years of hard work, the day we are waiting for...

Had my graduation on 17 may, its already more than a month later actually.
Well but better late than never, jsut wanted to update a little on my graduation.
Actually it wasn't anything special, we just went up to the stage to collect our diploma and after that took a few photos.
Well i just thought that it is an occasion to commemorate. Afterall, we all worked hard for this. And yes, of course i did work very hard for it!
I clearly remember how hard it had been for me to survive through the 3 years of poly. Year 1 was a torture when i had bad relationship with my classmates. Year 2 was a torture with the neverending projects done by only 2 brains and we still had to deal with the shit, nonsense and unfairness by irresponsible people. Struggling through my cca to impress others, letting people know that i actually did put in hardwork, proving to other people with no results seen at the end after all the endless sweat, blood and tears.
Year 3 was slightly better, but still torturous dealing with the projects, conflicts and exams. The better part was going to disney for an internship, meeting people whom were so awesome. Struggling to lead an independent life, trying to take care of myself by almost burning down the kitchen. Doing all the tough work i never thought i would do in my entire life. Throwing trash and changing trash bags in a quick service restaurant, washing the endless and dirty dishes, dealing with some guests who thought that i couldn't understand english. Made mistakes, had fun and i learned. I would say i really learn a lot from disney.
Well, so after all these, i graduated.
Words can never describe how hard my poly life was. I don't know if anyone else felt the same. People would think i am exaggerating. How hard can poly be? Some people might think its just all play but no work. I guess i'm the totally opposite. All work but no play.
But whatever it is, at the end of the day, i still made it. My hard-earned diploma.
Truly speaking, do i regret coming to poly? Yes and no.
Yes, because i think i would probably feel the same amount of stress/ even lesser if i had been to a jc but only need to spend 2 years. Yes because i feel that my diploma is kinda a waste since i do not have the thought of going into this industry. Yes because of the unhappiness and bad memories that i have to bring along throughout my life.
And a no because i had the chance to spend half a year in Disney florida, create wonderful memories and meet awesome people. No because even though its hard for a poly student to get into a desired course in uni, i still made it. No because i still had some encouraging friends whom help me through the hard times.
Whatever it is, i am done with this stage of my life, moving on to uni life.


Me in my graduation robe. That's the first time i ever worn my graduation robe! And my sp graduation bear hehe!

That's me and my family! (Missing my bro though)

So thankful for these two girls!! They definitely have helped me and encouraged me a lot during this 3 years!

Yay disney!! Travel buddies for 2 weeks!! (Longest is xj lol!)
And us with the disney graduation hat!! So sad i didn't bring along mine, i borrowed from someone else to take the pic lol.

Saw ys during the graduation and took a pic with her! Haven't met her for so long and she slimmed down so much!! She's so skinny now.

Well, that's about it for graduation. I have more pictures with me but im kinda lazy to upload everything.
As for now, i'm currently working while waiting for uni to start. I'm working retail at forever new. I'm much more particular about service about interning at Disney, as well as after seeing the service standards in other countries. Well seriously, i really think that our service standards need improvements. I'm not trying to say that everyone's service is bad. Definitely, i do meet some people whom service is commendable. But, in general, everytime i enter a store, i'm not greeted and there's no smile by the store assistant. They would be more interested in doing their own things than assisting me. Even in restaurants, when we pay service charge to them, it feels like they don't even deserve that. Other than taking our orders, serving the food, clearing the table, what other things do they do? What's worse it sometimes they don't even take the initiative to take our orders, the food take forever to come, nobody clear the table. So tell me, is this even called service. Do these restaurants/ people deserve the 10% service charge? In this way, probable tipping is a better form of "service charge". You think they deserve better service, you tip them higher. Their service is shit, you can jolly well give pathetic tips. And that's nothing gotta do with being generous or not. People who don't serve well just don't deserve that much of tips, as simple as that. And since in sg we are paying that fixed amount of 10% service charge which sometimes can amount to quite high, they ought to provide that level of service.
That's the thing i clearly observed after i got back. Which is also something i can't stand at all since i'm a tourism student and all i learnt in poly is about the service industry. I went on a vacation to taiwan earlier and i would say their service is so good! The people there are so friendly! I have never entered a store whereby the store assistant would kept quiet upon seeing me! Every single store that i entered, i have greeting me, talking to me, smiling. And i think that's just the basic service to provide.
And when i start working at forever new, i start talking to my customers, assisting them, and of course smiling.
Its actually kinda fun working there, the people there are nice too!
So for now, let me just concentrate on work, have fun while i can, and look forward to uni life.

HELLO TAIWAN!! :)

Well, it actually had been about 3 weeks since i got back from my Taiwan trip.
However i was just too lazy to post some pictures and blog about it.
K anyway, this time round, i went with my family to taiwan, taipei. We only went to taipei just because we are only there for 5 days. I know its considered really short, well my parents couldnt get too many days off and i have graduation on the 17th, which is why we decided to come back on the 16th. Nevertheless, its still fun.

So, let the pictures do the talking.



So, this was our first meal in Taiwan. The famous Ah zhong mian xian. Well, it was really pretty good and it taste different from those oyster meesua we had in Singapore. I also recommend the Cheng Ji mian xian which i tried on my third day too! That one is also pretty good!!

And then we head to Wan Li, which was on our way to Yeh liu geopark. We hired a cab for the entire day for NT3500, which is around S$150. He drove to several places like wan li, yehliu geopark, jiufen, shifen.

Lol he even brought us and told us the nice places to take beautiful shots. I really love those pictures taken over here!

Next, we headed into yehliu geopark. Well, we didnt really explore and stayed around for too long. It was actually drizzling so we decided to go out after a while.

This was on our way to Jiufen. This is the golden waterfall @ Jiufen. But again, it was drizzling so we didnt took much photos here! Yeah, it was actually raining most of the days!

Then we headed up to Shifen! Well, everyone we goes to shifen will definitely 放天灯!
So, my family and I picked the one with 4 colours. By the way, different colour represent different things such as your life, career or health.

Me playing with the 仙女棒！I remember i used to play with this when i was very young. Well anyway, i was actually very scared of it. Somehow i think that it would actually burn my hand.



 

 

This was me with my 巨无霸冰淇淋! Okay i know i'm such a glutton. Most of the time i just eat and eat and eat.

 

 

Here we go! Lover's bridge @ Fisherman's wharf. Well, its actually a pretty nice place. The sunset there was really beautiful. Too bad i didn't take a nice shot of it!

Well, that's pretty much it. I've taken quite a few photos but i'm just too lazy to upload most of them so i picked the few that i like.
Well, I actually love travelling a lot, going to new places, seeing things that i've never seen before.
Okay, i hope my next overseas trip comes soon.
Have some plans for that but, *fingers cross*, i really hope we are going.

Again

I hate the fact that most of the time i'm just force to accept the truth even though i do not want to.
It sucks so bad.
I wonder if i brought this upon myself.
Knowing right from the start this is how everything's gonna turn out, but i still chose to go this way. If I didn't, probably it wouldn't hurt so much? I know better than anyone else what i should do, yet i do not want to do the right thing. I know only by letting go can i continue to move on. But, all these were too much for me to let go. I can't bear to let go, neither do i want to..
But what's the point? Holding on so tightly to the hopes that would only bring me down, coming up with neverending lies telling myself that things gonna get better. Oh, so did i just forget that all these were what pulled me down? And all these were what that turned into tears, hurt and hatred?
I can always be reminding myself of those things that happened, but i can never stop myself from wanting more.
Greed.
I still remember that day when i was on the cab, that morning. I cried and cried and cried, coz i don't want to leave. I cried non-stop. And now, almost two months later, i'm sitting here, still crying.
I know i'm stupid. I probably never mean as much to him compared to how much he mean to me. Even though i know it doesnt help and wouldnt change a thing, i still did whatever i can. Even though i know i can never be compared to her, i still did whatever i can. Even if i'm just a nobody, or probably just someone who helped him to move on. Yes, and if i really did help him to move on, who's gonna help me right now? But what should i do? Those memories were too good for me to even stop thinking about it and move on with my life.
Still, i'm rational enough to know that i can't carry on like this. I know what i should do, my brain knows. But deep inside me, i just didn't want to.

People do change

Hi everyone, it has been almost a month since i came back from the states. Adapting well? No not at all. Yeah i know i haven't been away for very long, its only half a year. But, everything seems so different when i came back. Yes of course i do miss the states badly. I miss disney, miss the people there, miss the freedom, and miss "my life".
When i said i miss my life, i really do. Because over there, it feels like im leading a life of my own. An independent one, one that i know i have to make my own decisions, face my own consequences. One that i do not have to answer to anyone but myself. One that i do not need to care about anyone's opinions, do not have to worry about anyone judging me. Yes i do miss that badly.
When i got back to Singapore, it felt like i have to deal with a lot of things. All the stress are coming back again. I was working really hard during the 3 years in poly just because i want to get into a local uni. Now that i was given the offer, i hesitated. Because i got a different perception about life. Why am i stressing myself so much? Living in the states has made me realized about how much fun i missed out during my childhood and my teenage years. I cared about how people think of me, about what people says, and everything kinda affects me. I'm leading a life that society wants me to lead, not a life of my own. This doesn't makes sense.
Well, ultimately, i still did accept my uni offer, just because as of now, i guess that's what i need to and have to do. But what awaits me in the future, i don't know. After i graduate, i don't know. I want something different. Because i think my perception of life changes, i think there's a need for us to pursue what we want.
I miss everything there. I know i should be contented that i even got the chance to be in the states for half a year, and i shouldn't be complaining that much. Well, comparisons are easily done once you have had a taste of perfection. Who would want anything lesser?
I really miss him so much. I miss those times when i had someone who cared so much about me. I felt important. Everything we did together, i remembered it all. I miss him a lot, i miss those times a lot. I still cry when i think about it. Because i know all those times were nothing but memories. And never would we have to chance to do what we used to do again. I know crying doesn't help, i know i should be glad that i met him, i know i should be contented that i have those good memories with me. I know, i know, i know. But its all easier said than done. It's human nature. We always want more than what we were given. I know its time to move on. He probably did. Someday i would too, i just dont know when. Time heals everything, time helps you to let go of things, time helps you to move on, even if you don't want to. I know i will, but... i rather not. Because all those times we spent together were so precious to me. He's so important to me. It hurts to know that few years down the road, we probably will just be strangers or maybe, friends who don't talk anymore?
Well, probably this is life. What's yours is yours, what's not yours, will never be yours.
"How lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard" - Quoted by my favourite pooh.
Yeah maybe, i should consider myself lucky. I mean, there's nothing i can do anymore, its not up to me to decide. Okay enough of all these.

Well, just some pictures during my last 2 weeks of travelling in US. I went to new york, washington and miami. Spent my last 5 days in orlando. I was in new york for a total of 10 days!! Which i kinda regretted because i think that's too long to be honest. Should have spent more time in washington or maybe, in orlando.


The second day when i arrived at new york, it was snowing!! Was so excited coz it was my first time seeing snow!

This is times square!!

At grand central terminal!

This is at central park.

Me with my colourful bag of M&Ms with i bought from world of M&Ms!

Me and xj in front of flat iron building!

Again at central park. This time there was snow on the floor.

Brooklyn bridge!

View from the 86th storey of empire state building.

Statue of liberty!!
Its quite disappointing that we can't go up the island due to some damage caused by hurricane sandy. Well but its still great even though we see it from far!

Over at niagara falls! The view of it at night!

The dayview!

This is over at washington! The white house!

Cherry blossom. Too bad they are not bloom.

Capitol building.

Over at miami, south beach. Well i wasn't that excited because i've been to south beach the other time when i came back from disney cruise. But still, south beach is a pretty nice beach.

Well, that's pretty much it to sum up my 2 weeks vacation in US. About two more weeks and i'm going to taiwan. Excited? Yeah a little since i've always wanted to go there. Alright i hope i'll have lots and lots of fun. After taiwan, it will be time for me to get a job! Have been resting too long since i got back from the states.

Guess that's pretty much it. Shall update some other time. Goodbye! (: